bus ride

was on the bus ride home early from hamlet cause i ceebs to go to messina and just wanted to go home and read great gatsby/ 
omg this is the nerdiest sentence ive written in a while.

but i was on the bus and these little kids were sitting at the back and then one kid got up and moved to the front and she looked like she was in year 3/4. and at first it just looked normal like it was close to her stop but then a kid from the back (another chick who sounded like she was in year 1/2) was like "oh why did she move to the front? cause she's a weeeeeirddddo" 
and not in a joking way like what i'd say to my friends but like super mean and then she'd laugh and shit.
and at first the girl didn't respond and then she turned back and stood up in front of the aisle and she was like "w-what did you just say about me!?"
and the whole bus was quiet and there were adults on there but everyone was just like quiet and no-one butted in and the little mean kid got scared and then the girl sat back down and got off 2/3 stops after. 

honestly if i was her at that age i would just pretend to cooly ignore her while i'd get teary and not rebut cause i dont want to cause a public tantrum.  like i dont even know her but so much respect for that girl. 

idk that scene kept playing throughout my head the whole afternoon idek why but yeah. 

hamlet was gooood. 
obviously they skipped parts but the end they replaced the sword fighting scene with a scene where everyone but hamlet is already dead and the sword fighting scene was said in stop motion and it just made the whole thing more intimate and created another world of interpretation on hamlet. 

i don't get how people could talk and eat and not pay attention in plays. one, it's just rude and two there is just so much intricacy in plays- the way the actors have their own characterisation and interpretation of their characters and how they immerse themselves in that role and even do it live in front of an audience is so magical if people wanted to talk about how hot the actors are in the middle of the play or eat they should just gtfo so rude. 

Lazy selfies

~ shit day 

~ halloween civi was meeeh 

~ school was meh 

~ have textiles test tomorrow only began to study 

~ know that im better of than half the class 

~ meh. 

~ lazy. 

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uhm hi? 
not sure what to say hahahahs okay :)

soz for the lack of daily updates

the past days have been tutoring and tutoring and playing restaurant story HAAHAHAHS. 
what began as something to download for boring loner train rides have eaten up my mornings like 2 hours a day playing that shit. 
try to find me hueueheuheu we can be neighbours. 

had tutoring with aaron on friday. 
he was stuck in traffic or something so i had to wait for half an hour but the lesson was pretty productive like we actually did work and he was helpful and not grumpy like last time. 
omfg that time when we did hamlet and he made me search for quotes with that grumpy bird face but this time he was really nice cause we helped each other together. guess he's pretty moody like his mood is based on how his day went- not professional at all- or he felt bad i had to wait for 30mins idek but GOOOOOOD productive day. 
tina's friend offered to tutor me for 40$ an hour. like whaaaat aaron charges me 30$ and hes much better and the new chick will make me change my way of writing. u go to america ya poo. 

i've been sleeping in advanced english for the pass 2 lessons ie going through the crucible. 
i feel so bad because this was me at the start of year 11 and it's not like im not interested it's just he goes through it soooooo slow and there seriously isn't a point and i try to keep myself awake but im always half asleep and writing like im left handed. 
and he still hasn't realised. 

3U ENGLISH <3 after="" and="" bomb="" deep="" font="" good.="" grill="" hartley="" hueheuheuheuheuheuheuehuheuehuehe.="" i="" idk="" in="" is="" it="" its="" love="" much="" my="" nbsp="" nice="" prepre="" so="" the="" thing="" thinking="" up="">

im understanding maths well and i'm actually doing work in class and i feel so proud of myself. yaaayayayaayayayay. kinda understand circular motion but im gonna put in more effort. 

history is going pretty good and i have the best study buddy ever JASMINE HUEHUEHUE. 
idk there are people where u swap notes and even though they have everything you're like ehhhhhh - and cause im paranoid at everything i tend to put more than i need so i don't like people who just note things briefly cause WHAT IF- but jasmine structures it like i do so it's like me writing it hahahahahas.

and understanding terry lee! he laughed at me yesterday i dont understand our relationship is weird omg that why you should never go to ur sis's ex's dad's tutoring place. 

i think i'm pretty much up to date with everything and its been 2 weeks hope this effort keeps lasting hehehehe. 

50 RANDOM FACTS

this took me 3 weeks to finish, hope youse appreciate my effort.

1. I'm an aussie born, 163cm vietnamese chicka
2. I was suppose to be named 'An' in Viet, which is a boys name, but dad tweaked it to make it more original..(?)..and hence the name Ann. 
3. I've never got so badly injured. the worst was falling off a balance beam in year 2 on a rainy day and cutting my forehead open (and gaining an incredible bump), hence a scar
4. i love food. food completes me. food >money>hotguy
5. One thing i can eat all day eryday is salmon avo roll because everything i love is in that little thing omg :") 
6. i used to be twinsies with my big sis; we used to have matching wardrobes and matching bobcut hair and we were cute. not anymore :( 
7. failed pianist
8. sport enthusiast even though i suck. used to play netball, do squad training for swimming and basketball hahhas
9. i have small hands and fingers. 
10. my horrible eyesight was due to me waking up at 5 as a kid and reading under my covers
11. sydney swans are my babies :) 
12. when i was around 9 i ran down an old lady at the park with my training bike, i dont even know how. luckily i ran into her on her side and she didn't get majorly hurt but it scarred me. 
13. ive always had a shit phone because quantity over quality hehe
14. only been to vietnam overseas, and never been outtastate
15. first concert was to go see tinnie tempah, guy sebastian, potbellez and the script. worst mosh pit experience.
16. on my latest trip to vietnam, my parents (foolishly in hindsight) allowed me to be driven home by a 'motorbike taxi' on my own. the streets were crowded and i didn't know shit and i couldve gotten lost and became a  mainland viet kid ohupeheoheo. 
17. got my first pair of piercings in year 2
18. seriously family oriented. 
19. im horrible at grammar. year 11 already and still got corrected by it, it means something. 
20. i used to be an avid reader until laziness got to me 
21. first job was at maccas for 2 months. second job was at a froyo shop for 3 months. still made so much moolas cause good working hehehe
22. first tamagotchi was lost at central station bathrooms. 
23. my wardrobe is black. my shoe collection is black. . 
24. had my own itunes podcast when i was in yr 8, was a radio dj in year 9 whaaaat. 
25. i sew for fun
26. my room is purple
27. my right foot is bigger than my left and has two moles on it whaaaat
28. i cant look at blood related shit/surgery related shit/internal organs without gagging
29. used to be scared of the dark i'd sleep with grandma and hold her hand every night until year 8 no kidding
30. never late. always prepared the night before. paranoid little fuck. 
31. have an older sister and shes a bum 
32. spring baby. i love spring :)
33. im very keen on saving money and not spending but once its like massive withdrawals 
34. can speak viet fluently huehuehueheuheuhheueh
35. my first pets were fishes but the died cause we never fed them well. 
36. i have hyper sensitive skin and apparently also allergic to steel. 
37. first best friend i remember was a girl in kindergarten named Jacqueline
38. first crush was a family friend who taught me how to play soccer- i tried to impress him by eating an ant. 
39. favourite fruit is WATERMELON. 
40. i have a purple ukulele named Francisco
41. I used to do youtube covers.
42. ive got a grandma who's not my blood grandma but i love her endlessly. 
43. i laugh at everything. 
44. my middle-class working dream has always been to own a local fruit business 
45. first real gaming console was a pink nintendo ds with Brain Training
46. favourite CD-ROM games (u 2000 kids might not even know) was jumpstart second grade and carmen san diego
47. first time i got in trouble at school was in kindergarten and had to sit next to the naughty bin for running into the store room
48. youngest bitchiest memory of me was in year 2 when i told someone not to lie because they would go to hell. and he cried. 
49. i can't whistle
50. i can't pronounce words properly

creycrey heat

it felt like vietnam today. 

fucking tony abbott doesn't understand that half of the reason why the weather is like fucking vietnam in spring is because of fucking pollution and global warming and cuts down the global warming department or someshit and carbon tax do u even care for our future. 

and apparently its just not me who's complaining about how sydney trains is cutting trains at yagoona cause the local mayor is also going apeshit cause people complain. stupid government. 

today was such a hot day school felt gross. spent modern playing that guessing game that's on ellen and also stayed in at lunch to play cause you just couldnt/dont want to do shit. 
finished my 3u english work and my maths hw now gotta do textiles and then also finish my paragraph fuark. 

jasmine's been linking me to poetry slams so now we decided to add poetry into our album and instead of just making it a music mix tape we're just going to make it a compilation album of fine arts hahahas. anyways here's a snippet of our talents:

Why Am I Always Hungry. by ann 

Why am I always hungry?
Is it a worm in me that craves my attention
without rest
Or the dying feeling that an apocalypse will happen
So that everytime i will open the fridge
And devour everything that is edible. 
Why. Why. Why

The end

I Hate Hot Weather, by Jasmine

I hate hot weather
It's as though God designed it as a day to make fat people feel fatter
I hate hot weather
I feel like a pig of a spit rolling and rolling 
and burning and crumbling until all that's left 
are the ashes of my sweating bones. 
I hate hot weather
It makes school almost unbearable
It makes the lights too bright
I makes the teacher drone on and on and on until somebody
snaps and throws the sheet at her face and screams, 
"BITCH I CAN READ!"
I hate hot weather. 

The End

we literally did this in like 2 minutes. aren't we geniuses or what HAHAHAHAHS. 

why am i always hungry

refurbishing the kitchen meant that the weekend was for cleaning up and taking everything out. 
stove stopped working 1/2 months ago had to get a temp electronic one that isshit as not gonna lie
and then on friday fridge started to screw up as well so yeah...is time for a change. 

dad's calling the guys to come in and tear the whole kitchen down, redo the walls and install in new benchtops and oven/stoveand shit so tina's gon be camping at my study table for the next 1/2 months which means a mess everywhere fuck.

bought the new fridge it's a beauty hehehe so much space for food. 
relocated the food cupboard into the study room so now always tempted to reach something.

I HATE BRINGING LUNCH TO SCHOOL CAUSE THEY ALWAYS GO HOT BY THE TIME ITS LUNCH AND IDEK IF ITS EDIBLE cause ham and shit can go off and its so hard omfg. end up chucking most of the shit away and crying cause it was so nice but so mysteriously dangerous. no wonder im always hungry.

so very annoyed at certain people at the moment. actually like one person. SHES SO NEGATIVE I CANT STAND NEGATIVE ENERGY AROUND ME OMG. its like whenever im with her i have to contain myself and its such a bore and i cant arggggggh.

year 12 is sad cause all my friends have different frees to me and i can never hang with them :(( started circular motion today for 4u and the whole physics side to it and i cried. this is the sole reason why i drop phys and its coming back to haunt me. 

chen brought nice carrot cake today and it was beautiful and dani made brownies and i brought skittles so it was a nice foodie day. 

gotta do work now :(

this week's hues and blues

• first time having proper maccas a while today because our fridge broke down :( 
• fridge r.i.p, you've been loyal to my family even before i was born
• had the whole family carry the fridge outside. omfg had to go out the back door and there's a 30cm ground height difference between the ground and verendah so we had to build a makeshift stairs and slide the huge-as thing down and had to quickly remove the steps it was so hectic hahahas. but then it felt cute cause everyone was helping out and gran even put in some man power. its like...making something positive out of bad shit...feels good :) 
• hartley made us watch opening credits of Star Trek 
• first 3u english class felt like falling asleep
• first nap in class on friday in maths fml i only slept for like 10 minutes and felt so refreshed. 
• first 4u maths lesson was stoopid wtf we still up to long division of polynomials u mustg be kidding me kalina. 
• TEXTILEZ :) i've got my first draft of my design wooooot. 
• skipped lesson with aaron this week because i was partly busy and he was being a bitch i aint got no time for his shit. 
• i can't pass the kfc snack challenge fail in life :( 
• KFC TOWN HALL IS THE MOST DODGIEST GROSSEST KFC PIGEONS FLYING ERYWHERE ON YOUR FACE nearly got attacked my pigeons. 
• me and kim had a small food adventure aka "the peasants feast". 1.75 wicked wings snackbox, $1 small fries, $1 mizuya green tea icecream. full as shit skipped dinner for $.3.75 
• bought another bobble water bottle because i lost mine and i dropped it on the first day i brought it to school and now there's like a dent. 
• first time down a 30min continous cardio and strength in a long time fuaaark felt so accomplished
• zam said hi to me on the corridor he was like "hi ann!" and i said "hi sir!" and it felt so nostalgically sad. zam u'll always be da best teacher :))
• the sky was purple and the sun looked like a pimple on one of the days

cheeeeerios. 

tumblr anon asked: 

hello! I can see you're trying to exercise frequently, I'm starting to do that too. just wondering, what music do you recommend for cardio/strength/overall workout?

hey, thanks for reading! 
yeah, trying to work out frequently...hahahahas. 
I'm really bad at workout music because i try to listen to upbeat dance tracks / rave music/ music playlists on youtube for working out and they don't seem to help because i don't really know the songs well..?
idk i feel like i need to really know the part of the song to be able to be motivated, so i suggest you find upbeat songs that you like/you can workout to?  

here's my playlist at the moment. there's some songs in there that i do for cardio and others that i use for strength, hope this helps :)



ask me morez; 

http://ayeeitsann.tumblr.com/ask

Messages for people

1. i don't understand you and what the fuck you want. I dont want to think that you're acting like top shit at the moment but it looks like you do.

2. Not gon lie i miss you. theres just so many things i wanna tell you, where u at :( 

3. Im not sure what to say when im with you. We used to be close but even though we see each other so much everytime we talk one-on-one its so brief and awkward im not sure what to do. 

4. You make me feel loved and happy and you're like my better half i can trust in you for everything. My boleros. 

5. Sometimes i feel like you're one of the coolest friends i know-with so little flaws and so much ambition-, sometimes i feel like you're just wanting attention and judging others for shit that you do. 

6. I want to hit you in the face. You're the most arrogant, insensitive guy i know. Just because you're smart doesnt meet you can be an asshole okay.

7. I like you. i want to be closer to you and get to know you pass the small talks and the smiles. 

8. If only i can get your social unawkwardness and your gift if giving good first impressions. You nearly perfect muthafuckka how even. 

TERRY TERRY TERRY LEE LEE LEE

results: mx1; 18/20 

            mx2; 17/20

these marks reflect my weeks end of studying and worrying and just trying hard. 

i know im not the brightest-not even close-but these marks reflect the amount of effort and how hard i tried even though im stupid as fuck. 

ahhhh im so proud heheheheheheehehehehehehehehehe ^______^ 

hopefully i will be able to keep producing this amount of effort for the year to come :))

so happy hehehehe. 

i love anna akana

OMG we think so alike all of her videos i just sit there crying thinking that we really so much. 
woke up early and studied my ass up to get to class and just feel more shit about myself. 
yes i have studied and yes i have most of my answers right but i feel like i don't deserve it because i don't fully understand the concept. of complex numbers. 
ughs whatever fuck it. 
i got 6 hours to get log and expon. functions in my head because fucking exam again tomorrow fml i dont know anything. 

wanna go to angels, mum knows about it but feel like i shouldnt cause i got so much work but then i really wanna go cause bbq and pool party, its gonna be the last time to go to angels house and pool party together. 
and i've never been to a pool party...which sucks hahahas. 
but i got so much shiiit to do fuck. 

grandma went to collect some stuff for people to sell at her charity pop-up store tomorrow and some wedding shop were giving away crap and she came home with a mannequin and i literally cried when i saw it and dad woke up and yelled at me HAHAHAHS. but fml kept trying to find one and i finally to. WOOOOOOTWOOOOOT. also she brought home pearls and fabric flowers and all these really cute stuff. no fabric though and im not sure if i need these flowers and pearls but all of this is so great for a poor textiles student. 

anyways, byebye for now. 

RESULTS AND DYING POLE VAULTS

soz no pole vaults.
but this week defs felt like jumping all over the place. 
keep waking up late and sleeping at abnormal times and feeling so out of place, the only thin that;'s keeping me on top are my smoothies, not gonna lie. 

decided not to do chem but only swapped on friday. took a photo with zam- i think he was definitely the best teacher in terms of personality. never gets mad and always cares <33 a="" although="" bit...iffy..hahahas="" chem="" font="" his="" is="" teaching="">

started with crucible in class woooot. however got my english back and i'm back to base one with average english results yaaaay for losing my high rank ! :( 

got my textiles back and got top of the class :")  staying with textiles and already feeling the pressure to produce something good. 

got maths back. eeeeeeeeeeh. :/ 

also got my modern history back and got pretty good, full marks :) really proud of myself but trying to not get so on top of my head and thinking like top shit because that really wasn't my best effort. 

the whole week at homehas been studying 4 unit maths for tutoring, and exercising, and writing notes..and just dying. terry lee is taking up my life :( 
and then i checked the emails today to find out i'm also doing a 3u test, something i obviously haven't studied for NOOOO SWEAT. ahahahs :( gonna fail again. 

went to aaron's. obviously not a good day. i really can't handle thinking on the spot however private tutoring puts you in that position where you gotta think fresh ideas on the spot and with someone like me who cannot word what they even want to say properly, i was literally dying. :( i wanna make him proud though that i'm improving but i guess im slacking off too much, when he's gone to america i will be dying and regretting his short, lanky, bird hair presence. 

the rents came to terry lee to pay the fees and also talk about my progress and i'm so embarassed sldfjslkdjflsdf apparently i'm really quiet but i study well. which is weird..cause i'm just like..average.. but he said im good at trigonometry and in my head im just like WOOT ALL THANKS TO TRUONG AND THE UNIT CIRCLE SOOOONNNNNNNNN. 

went home and now lazy again and checking urban outfitters hahahs, guess it's going to take a while before a pick my ass up and become more studious. 

here's an oldie but a goodie: 

First day back

Started the day off sooooo well. 

Morning made my smoothie intime for train, caught it was jasmine an went out of station alive even without tickets hahahs

1. English came to class to be given Crucible and started going through it 

2. Had modern felt so free cause i would be deopping it nexr week an was soaking up all my freedom and falling asleep in class cause fuck modern

3. Maths wa distracting but did all my work and soldiered on 

4. Then chem came. What i thought was a decent go at chem was a lie and i was faced with the excruciating pain of getting shit. Again. The moment when you think that you have tried ur very best and have studied harder than so many to get a below average mark sans mcq hurted so bad- and i felt that even though i love the witty cool science behind chem and how everything made sense and was relatable to so many things- i still felt my love for chem was one sided and it felt like it would always be. 

I dont understand. I know im not the brightest kid but i alwys knew that if i had it in me and the motivation to study i would excel, or at least be average. Even when i studied so hard, knew the concepts, and even began to enjoy chem with all it ups and downs it was still not enough. And figuring out that most people would did not find that joy and put in that hard work and got pretty good makes me feel a whole lot shitter cause i dont know what the fuck im doing wrong. 

Talked to zam and even went a bit teary and he just told me to focus on what i can do and what im good at and just drive towards the goal. 

Which is modern. The beauty of modern is, when i try so hard, i get what i deserve. The fun of learning the conflicts and historical events are so appealing and worthit to understand how we a humans have evolved and its just really fun. But the reason why i chose to quit it was because of the workload that followed it. Essays and booklets and works and words that would take decades to memories were unbearable for me- so how would i be able to handle next year where everything is 10 tome the amount of last term? - and im not even exaggerating. 

But yeah, it was a lot to think about. People said to try 13units but i didnt want to be unsure when i started year 12. Although it sounds easy- the choice to do something youre shit at and be unsure about your atar or something you're quite well ranked at and do well but is not helpful for your path in uni and shit. 

Gaaaargh. Decisions already on the first day. Ive made up my mind though- dropping chem and doing as much as i can to get my marks. The cohort is so good at modern as well. Djakjaicjaka so much shiiiiit to rethink fml has to happen after i made my decision to betray zam and join harrisons, that was not even needed 

Hello again complex numbers

Thought u were long gone after the excrutiating life killing exam but no youre back to haunt me 

- last minute studying, have no learnt my lesson 

23.09.13

BURN ON! 

Lets see how long we can get this going :)) 

i think about you

canblaster- I think about u 

sick

sore throat
sore shoulders
don't feel like doing anything.
not motivated to catch up on work. 

listening to ta-ku and u.hu.ru and eatting sour skittles cause tired and sick. 

funny though, it started to super hail at my area and i'm so glad it didn't happen yesterday. yesterday was so much fun. 
sam came over to hang and brought over a painting as a present and i nearly cried because it was amazing.
went shopping for backtoschool shit, watched runner runner and just hang out for a bit. 

was such a good day until some stupid fucking adult with small kids decided to jump the ticket line by saying his son stood in front of me and i politely told him that no I was standing behind some dude the whole time. and he kept going but i stood there and was like no I was here, ask the guy in front of me. and obviously the man couldn't do shit cause he's fake so he was like "fine" and stood behind me again and called me a bitch. 
that man is so horrid why would u say that to a teenager in front of your own kids obviously i could've called you an un-educated liar but did i no i didn't. 
just ignored him and watched him torment others to go to the front which he never did. 

runner runner was okay but tbh they should stop focusing on justin timberlakes face because it's just so cute that i got distracted and couldn't really focus on the storyline much...mhmm there really wasn't any storyline..

came back home and prepped for the night. chen came over and brought me the present and i was so happy cause it was what i really wanted- smoothie maker/blender!
really excited to make some juices woooot. 

she hung for a bit and they made pandan waffles then i went to the city. met up with kim and then with the others and walked to the restaurant. 

thought that i'd go overbudget but ended up going under with money to spare for dessert. 
the food was really nice, service was exceptional and people got really full which i was super glad about. 
then went and bought gelatissimo and the guy was so nice he gave me 4 flavours instead of 3 heheheh. yeah, sat at maccas to eat and opened pressies. 
hehehe, kristie linda chen steph z jasmine got me the blender/bobble bottle/matte polish and moneyz for shoes which i was so happy for.
steph x, maddie, sarah also pitched in for the deandris and they had a cute card which i was awing at and dani brought me skittles which i hate her for cause i pretty much finished the packet in one day hahahahs. angel nish and lamyas still havent came yet so excited to see. 
soz no pictures this year because im just so lazy hahahas. 

great day with the greatest company what more could i ask for :)
hoping that this year would be the same :)

yesterday night was so much fun. only got to spend 2 hours with the lovelies but felt so happy that i know these people. 

morning october :)