Today i wanted to meet Kim at Bankstown so i could post my shit but she didnt end up being there so I went myself. spent 20mins fillin out forms which ended up costin fcking 20 just for postage and i met grandma there hahahs.
BUT i kept it cool so she didnr suspect a thing. I went to that bakery that kim said was nice but they ran outta nice slices ao i had to get a shitty one D;
Went to Lincraft to get the pattern and OMG it was SOO CHEAP. me and angel and sarah will be doing a little like each other so were sharing the pattern and its cheap as. Like 2-3 dollars each :)
Went to Angels and just chilled out playing wii and watching movies hahah. Came home at 4.30 and i had to walk back it was hell :(
And now im tired as shit. And omggg i really wanna watch v fpr vendetta tonight so i promised myself i wont go on fb. I musnt.
12/29/2011
12/28/2011
Justa recount and some stuff
Hmm yesterday I didnt do anything hahas. dad banned me from skyping so i couldnt skype call angel and kristie :(
But i went to lincraft yesterday AND THERE WAS A MASSIVE STOCKTAKE. omg the stupid me didnt know an only brought 5 dollars to go buy some cord and finish the backpack uhuhuhuhu!
So im going tomorrow yeahs. Well, dad lets me go to angels but im going to meet kim at 10 at Bankstown and she's going to help me mail the crap and buy some vanilla slices and maybe we'll go pattern buying together!
Omg after tomorrow i can't afford to waste anymore money because i juat finished using the money i got from my relos some days ago on Monday :( hahaha I AM IN NEEDA A DESPERADO JOB. im going to write my resume asap and start handing them out! If im that desperate im going to probs work at bankstown mccas or kfc or something..but i needa job pronto.
SO TOMORROW im goin to have a wii date hahas. Well thats what Kristie says, just going to chill at Angels and bringing some popcorn.
BUT GUESS WHAT IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS ARVO BECAUSE.. in 4 hours time tina will be home WITH MY NEW UKELELELELELE. hahahas im so fcking excited cant contain it omgg. Im going to learn LULLABY by LATEEYA ASAP and maybe record it yuss.
AND GUESS WHAT ELSE? IMMA BE GOING TO AJ RAFAELS CONCERT? HOLEOEHEOESELEOEHEOELE. with tina and jess and were doing meet and greet which covers meet and greet, poster, VIP seating and pre show and rehearsal entry FCKYEAAH and what else is that its incredibly cheap 55 onlyz. Like that is half ona bronze tick to kpop cocert. AND MUM IS PAYIN OMG I LOVE HER IM SO EXCITED FOR REALS.
Hahaha im so happy now imma go watch V for Vendetta :DD doesnt make sense but mehhh..I LOVE IT :)
But i went to lincraft yesterday AND THERE WAS A MASSIVE STOCKTAKE. omg the stupid me didnt know an only brought 5 dollars to go buy some cord and finish the backpack uhuhuhuhu!
So im going tomorrow yeahs. Well, dad lets me go to angels but im going to meet kim at 10 at Bankstown and she's going to help me mail the crap and buy some vanilla slices and maybe we'll go pattern buying together!
Omg after tomorrow i can't afford to waste anymore money because i juat finished using the money i got from my relos some days ago on Monday :( hahaha I AM IN NEEDA A DESPERADO JOB. im going to write my resume asap and start handing them out! If im that desperate im going to probs work at bankstown mccas or kfc or something..but i needa job pronto.
SO TOMORROW im goin to have a wii date hahas. Well thats what Kristie says, just going to chill at Angels and bringing some popcorn.
BUT GUESS WHAT IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS ARVO BECAUSE.. in 4 hours time tina will be home WITH MY NEW UKELELELELELE. hahahas im so fcking excited cant contain it omgg. Im going to learn LULLABY by LATEEYA ASAP and maybe record it yuss.
AND GUESS WHAT ELSE? IMMA BE GOING TO AJ RAFAELS CONCERT? HOLEOEHEOESELEOEHEOELE. with tina and jess and were doing meet and greet which covers meet and greet, poster, VIP seating and pre show and rehearsal entry FCKYEAAH and what else is that its incredibly cheap 55 onlyz. Like that is half ona bronze tick to kpop cocert. AND MUM IS PAYIN OMG I LOVE HER IM SO EXCITED FOR REALS.
Hahaha im so happy now imma go watch V for Vendetta :DD doesnt make sense but mehhh..I LOVE IT :)
MY LOVE IS LOST D;
I LOST MY GREEN IPOD. Okay so sunday night i plugged it to sync and monday morn i didnt bring it to the outting OMGG WHAT TO DO!
12/27/2011
BOXING DAY :)
Ohlay schmolay.
Well yesterday was Maddi's birthday so we met up in the city to hang out. Since daddy took the car to work we had to walk to the station and i ended up getting to Town Hall pretty early and met up eith Kristie.
We went to Woolworths to buy some Jelly Bellys and met Sarah, Steph and Maddie and then we immediately went to Lush. Hahas, it just opened when we came so I went to buy Tina's present. I bought a huge chunk of Summer Pudding, which was a pink bar wth bits an pieces in it and also Godmother, which smelt awesome :)
We hun out at QVB but it was so crowded and pack FULL of asians. Haha me and sarah went guy hunting there heoleohrorl.
Went to Temt and spot this amazing pair of shorts and they were 30 down to 10 ! Although they were loose i still wanted them be because they were so cheap :) We went shopping on pitt street but it was so crowded and there were all these fams lining up in stores like Oroton and Guess and it was ssoo funny because they were all asians haha.
We found Nigashini later and then caught a shuffle to Market City and went shopping there. OMGG there were a pair of fake Tommys for $5 at Rubi and i was about to buy it until I realised that i have many pairs already :L
After roaming aroundMarket City and Chinatown - idk why but i ended up buying an fti sticky tape like wtf was i thinkin im going to sell it- we went to a Korean lunch buffet at the end of Chinatown road and it was nice except a teensy bit dodgy, ahas. The table wasnt clean when we came in and and nish nearly mistook the used chopsticks for the clean ones omgg. BUT THERE WAS SO MUCH DUKBOKKI DKXKAKXKSKX IT WAS A HAVEN. and omgg the yellow picked radish was so lovelyy i ate it by itself hahas.
Sitting next to our table was this group of uni students- 2 euro guys, 1 asian and 1 girl and OMGGG WERE THEGUYS SO KEEEWWWT haha. angel knew one of the europeans and said he went to the Kpop fest and i thought that was kewt :))
Afterwards we walked around a tad more until three when i needed to go home.
Haha hmm at night i just played around as usual and then talked to Brian and omgomgomg HIS BROS AND CUZZES ARE SAH KEWT haha. Singing and dancing to Infinite and BEAST and dissing their big bro hahas. I spent an hour on there until dad busted me :P
Funniest boxing day yet :)
Well yesterday was Maddi's birthday so we met up in the city to hang out. Since daddy took the car to work we had to walk to the station and i ended up getting to Town Hall pretty early and met up eith Kristie.
We went to Woolworths to buy some Jelly Bellys and met Sarah, Steph and Maddie and then we immediately went to Lush. Hahas, it just opened when we came so I went to buy Tina's present. I bought a huge chunk of Summer Pudding, which was a pink bar wth bits an pieces in it and also Godmother, which smelt awesome :)
We hun out at QVB but it was so crowded and pack FULL of asians. Haha me and sarah went guy hunting there heoleohrorl.
Went to Temt and spot this amazing pair of shorts and they were 30 down to 10 ! Although they were loose i still wanted them be because they were so cheap :) We went shopping on pitt street but it was so crowded and there were all these fams lining up in stores like Oroton and Guess and it was ssoo funny because they were all asians haha.
We found Nigashini later and then caught a shuffle to Market City and went shopping there. OMGG there were a pair of fake Tommys for $5 at Rubi and i was about to buy it until I realised that i have many pairs already :L
After roaming aroundMarket City and Chinatown - idk why but i ended up buying an fti sticky tape like wtf was i thinkin im going to sell it- we went to a Korean lunch buffet at the end of Chinatown road and it was nice except a teensy bit dodgy, ahas. The table wasnt clean when we came in and and nish nearly mistook the used chopsticks for the clean ones omgg. BUT THERE WAS SO MUCH DUKBOKKI DKXKAKXKSKX IT WAS A HAVEN. and omgg the yellow picked radish was so lovelyy i ate it by itself hahas.
Sitting next to our table was this group of uni students- 2 euro guys, 1 asian and 1 girl and OMGGG WERE THEGUYS SO KEEEWWWT haha. angel knew one of the europeans and said he went to the Kpop fest and i thought that was kewt :))
Afterwards we walked around a tad more until three when i needed to go home.
Haha hmm at night i just played around as usual and then talked to Brian and omgomgomg HIS BROS AND CUZZES ARE SAH KEWT haha. Singing and dancing to Infinite and BEAST and dissing their big bro hahas. I spent an hour on there until dad busted me :P
Funniest boxing day yet :)
12/25/2011
MERRY LOVELY CHRISTMAS!
Hehehe i woke up late today and just jammed myself with Christmas Carols :D It hasnt even finished yet but I think this year has been the happiest Christmas season of my life so far hehe.
It started on the Monday where I just had so much fun talking with Brian forthe whole night. On Wednesday I hung out with my sis and biffle Sam at my house; we bought pizza an pigged out while watching Inception, jammed on her bro's ukelele and then watched HILARIOUS videos of Fatality, this gory video game hahas. And as I was talking some certain person came on and talked and hahas, you guys know what happened next HEOHEOEOEHEOLE.
Thursday was shitty, i must admit, Friday was a bit better. Alvin and me had a big d&m at night where he filled me in with all his girl problems, haha poor guy. But he's back with Diana and that is goooood, i was scared he's going to be sayin something else hardeehar.
SATURDAY? FUNN. I endedup getting to talk to Gary into forgiving me on Skype. He's really nice and different to what I expected and he likes my accent haha. I told him my extracted version from my legend, got caught by dad fpr talking to myself hahas so i had to whisper on afterwards. And we talked about my journey to Westminister next yeat. Hmm, then i talked to Brian afterwards..about tomatoes, taro cruz and shit haha. It was so funny an he is sucha cheesy person mygod. AND GARY TOLD HIM I WAS HIS SECRET ADMIRER OMGG WHEN WAS I OMGG and Brian goes around being 'surprised' wen I wasnt. Omg gary. I told Brian to play me something on the guitar But then I lagged so yeah, i had to go to sleep.
Got woken up by Xin via text at 12.11 and woke up late today to send my round of texts :)
AN TOMORROW? CELEBRATING MADDIS BDAY YAAAAY. i'm goin to meet up with Kristie early at Town Hal to go to Lush and get some stuff for Tina. And then we'll go our rounds of window shopping so I could go to factorie. and if it is opebed, were going to an buffet for $10 yeee. Hahaha i need to go to Lincraft afterwarda as well to buy some cords for Brian's bag. And then afterwards I could sen it off :)
And, i will email Daisy and wuit being dj. djing was really fun most of the time but I don't find the fun in it anyway, I don't really lile to socialise online, i find face to face better or nothing at all. PLUS i find some of them really..idk..fake? They talk alot online but how am i suppose to know if theyre actually that fun in real life? thats why I dont believe in online chatting..and definitely long distane relos hahah. Omggg.
BUT I HAD A GREAT DAY RELAXING. an i hope that everythig would be fine for the times to come :) MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT WITH YOUR WHOLE FAM BAM AND FRIENDS :) Im outtie :)
It started on the Monday where I just had so much fun talking with Brian forthe whole night. On Wednesday I hung out with my sis and biffle Sam at my house; we bought pizza an pigged out while watching Inception, jammed on her bro's ukelele and then watched HILARIOUS videos of Fatality, this gory video game hahas. And as I was talking some certain person came on and talked and hahas, you guys know what happened next HEOHEOEOEHEOLE.
Thursday was shitty, i must admit, Friday was a bit better. Alvin and me had a big d&m at night where he filled me in with all his girl problems, haha poor guy. But he's back with Diana and that is goooood, i was scared he's going to be sayin something else hardeehar.
SATURDAY? FUNN. I endedup getting to talk to Gary into forgiving me on Skype. He's really nice and different to what I expected and he likes my accent haha. I told him my extracted version from my legend, got caught by dad fpr talking to myself hahas so i had to whisper on afterwards. And we talked about my journey to Westminister next yeat. Hmm, then i talked to Brian afterwards..about tomatoes, taro cruz and shit haha. It was so funny an he is sucha cheesy person mygod. AND GARY TOLD HIM I WAS HIS SECRET ADMIRER OMGG WHEN WAS I OMGG and Brian goes around being 'surprised' wen I wasnt. Omg gary. I told Brian to play me something on the guitar But then I lagged so yeah, i had to go to sleep.
Got woken up by Xin via text at 12.11 and woke up late today to send my round of texts :)
AN TOMORROW? CELEBRATING MADDIS BDAY YAAAAY. i'm goin to meet up with Kristie early at Town Hal to go to Lush and get some stuff for Tina. And then we'll go our rounds of window shopping so I could go to factorie. and if it is opebed, were going to an buffet for $10 yeee. Hahaha i need to go to Lincraft afterwarda as well to buy some cords for Brian's bag. And then afterwards I could sen it off :)
And, i will email Daisy and wuit being dj. djing was really fun most of the time but I don't find the fun in it anyway, I don't really lile to socialise online, i find face to face better or nothing at all. PLUS i find some of them really..idk..fake? They talk alot online but how am i suppose to know if theyre actually that fun in real life? thats why I dont believe in online chatting..and definitely long distane relos hahah. Omggg.
BUT I HAD A GREAT DAY RELAXING. an i hope that everythig would be fine for the times to come :) MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE AND I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT WITH YOUR WHOLE FAM BAM AND FRIENDS :) Im outtie :)
12/24/2011
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE
Firstly, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVES ahahas.
Going to be spending the night watching Carols by Candlenight heeellls yeahs :) anyhoos, GUESS WHO CONFESSED? hahahas ladidadida! awwws, he was sucha cutie, even though i admit he sucks at confessing :P making me go around in circles hahas, whatta corny person. mhmm, but honestly it pretty sucks, I know its not going to go anywhere so I felt bad making him raise his hopes. Iunno, I used to like him but now just only as a friend, and I feel more comfortable that way anyways, BUT I KEEP THINKING ABOUT HIM. ohgosh, I'm so complicated sometimes.
hmmm talking about that, i should talk about hkpr. Really, I barely dj. I feel awks, I just go dj, I don't even talk to the others, that's why I'm not that known. So i don't know if I should continue doing it or not, I feel so outta the circle and sometimes I just cbfcked doing it, there's better stuff on my agenda.
mhmm, i went buffet with the whole fam bam today and hells yeah the food was nice :) I had 4 dishes altogether; a salad plate, a sushi plate, a fried shit plate - a hella was that filling- and a dessert plate which was scrumdiliumptious ofc.
AND omgg the cappuccino...i can't even describe how lovely it was. hahas, saw a hottie there, we smiled when met at the plate section, and guess who else? REYNOLD. OMG the dude that flipped his eyelids inside out and made my friend cry, hahas. Tina tried to talk to him but he doesnt remember her so I didn't wanna go and make him more confused. I just sat there and ate, lul.
Spent the whole afternoon watching Van Son and then skipped Asia...I'm just there to watch that cutie viet guy sing Frosty The Snowman. and his dancing is soooo funnay hahas.
Anyhoos, jamming Lydia Paek's and JReyez's cover of Elle Varner- Only Want To Give It To You. OMGG IT'S SO GOODDD :))
mhmm..Christmas is near..I have to start gathering things up and ship them to San Diego for him, FRIGGIN COSTS ME 20 BUCKS FOR SHIPPING MYGOSH. haha but he'll be getting me something back so, meh, its worth it. Plus, what else am I going to do with that straw fedora and primadonald bag? I am no Primadonna myself.
I'll be going to the city on Boxing Day to celebrate Maddi's bday so I'mma go find some cord to finish up his bag and theeen ship it, I think it'll come to him in 2 weeks time the least? iunno, because Aus.Post is sooo shitty atm, everyone's talking about how they don't trust it anymore.
Other than that I need a new pair of shorts, and factorie has a 2 for $40 sale. DAYUUMMM :D I seriously have no money left though, so I don't know why I'm willing to go because I needa save up my bucks. But I feel sorry for Maddi because barely anyone is coming - because some stupid people use the excuse that they're not close to her, them bitches..and I need to get out of my house before I drown of loneliness, ahahas. AND BOREDOM. I got nothing to do but refresh my fb news feed ohholygoddd.
Mum and Dad is holding up pretty well after the car accident, and I think I'm back to normal except for, when I sit at the front seat, I kinda do get paranoid. No one is making conversations about the accident of course, as we try to forget all of that and get along with normal stuff. And, when we do, it's a little awkward silence and I just hum and walk away.
OKAY, THAT'S MY TALK TODAY, imma post the cover up for you guys, because it's soooo good. And yeahs, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to y'all. hahas, I'm out :)
Going to be spending the night watching Carols by Candlenight heeellls yeahs :) anyhoos, GUESS WHO CONFESSED? hahahas ladidadida! awwws, he was sucha cutie, even though i admit he sucks at confessing :P making me go around in circles hahas, whatta corny person. mhmm, but honestly it pretty sucks, I know its not going to go anywhere so I felt bad making him raise his hopes. Iunno, I used to like him but now just only as a friend, and I feel more comfortable that way anyways, BUT I KEEP THINKING ABOUT HIM. ohgosh, I'm so complicated sometimes.
hmmm talking about that, i should talk about hkpr. Really, I barely dj. I feel awks, I just go dj, I don't even talk to the others, that's why I'm not that known. So i don't know if I should continue doing it or not, I feel so outta the circle and sometimes I just cbfcked doing it, there's better stuff on my agenda.
mhmm, i went buffet with the whole fam bam today and hells yeah the food was nice :) I had 4 dishes altogether; a salad plate, a sushi plate, a fried shit plate - a hella was that filling- and a dessert plate which was scrumdiliumptious ofc.
AND omgg the cappuccino...i can't even describe how lovely it was. hahas, saw a hottie there, we smiled when met at the plate section, and guess who else? REYNOLD. OMG the dude that flipped his eyelids inside out and made my friend cry, hahas. Tina tried to talk to him but he doesnt remember her so I didn't wanna go and make him more confused. I just sat there and ate, lul.
Spent the whole afternoon watching Van Son and then skipped Asia...I'm just there to watch that cutie viet guy sing Frosty The Snowman. and his dancing is soooo funnay hahas.
Anyhoos, jamming Lydia Paek's and JReyez's cover of Elle Varner- Only Want To Give It To You. OMGG IT'S SO GOODDD :))
mhmm..Christmas is near..I have to start gathering things up and ship them to San Diego for him, FRIGGIN COSTS ME 20 BUCKS FOR SHIPPING MYGOSH. haha but he'll be getting me something back so, meh, its worth it. Plus, what else am I going to do with that straw fedora and primadonald bag? I am no Primadonna myself.
I'll be going to the city on Boxing Day to celebrate Maddi's bday so I'mma go find some cord to finish up his bag and theeen ship it, I think it'll come to him in 2 weeks time the least? iunno, because Aus.Post is sooo shitty atm, everyone's talking about how they don't trust it anymore.
Other than that I need a new pair of shorts, and factorie has a 2 for $40 sale. DAYUUMMM :D I seriously have no money left though, so I don't know why I'm willing to go because I needa save up my bucks. But I feel sorry for Maddi because barely anyone is coming - because some stupid people use the excuse that they're not close to her, them bitches..and I need to get out of my house before I drown of loneliness, ahahas. AND BOREDOM. I got nothing to do but refresh my fb news feed ohholygoddd.
Mum and Dad is holding up pretty well after the car accident, and I think I'm back to normal except for, when I sit at the front seat, I kinda do get paranoid. No one is making conversations about the accident of course, as we try to forget all of that and get along with normal stuff. And, when we do, it's a little awkward silence and I just hum and walk away.
OKAY, THAT'S MY TALK TODAY, imma post the cover up for you guys, because it's soooo good. And yeahs, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to y'all. hahas, I'm out :)
12/22/2011
Fckfckfck
I am in so much deepshit. I don't know what to do, how to react to all this.
And i feel so sorry for mum. It is all y fault. If i helped her pay attention to the road and all..omg why am i so stupid. Now dad's just screaming at her about how stupid she is and she's tryin to hold it in.
And don't think its a good time to be crying in front of them, i dont think that would help. My stomache hurts really much and my head is pounding and i'm not sure if it was because of the accident or because i'm just completely shocked.
I know at least me and mum are safe but that's just a whole festive season ruined. i won't be able to go anywhere anymore and my plans for the holidays would be ruined. Fackfackfack.
And i feel so sorry for mum. It is all y fault. If i helped her pay attention to the road and all..omg why am i so stupid. Now dad's just screaming at her about how stupid she is and she's tryin to hold it in.
And don't think its a good time to be crying in front of them, i dont think that would help. My stomache hurts really much and my head is pounding and i'm not sure if it was because of the accident or because i'm just completely shocked.
I know at least me and mum are safe but that's just a whole festive season ruined. i won't be able to go anywhere anymore and my plans for the holidays would be ruined. Fackfackfack.
12/19/2011
Lookie I'm Smoking !
Ahahaha looks like a ciggie right? Hehe, mum brought it home from work and its French chocolate.
Haha, French people are geniuses, and I'm so goddamn bored :L
Haha, French people are geniuses, and I'm so goddamn bored :L
12/18/2011
I feel like recording some covers
I've been practising Thinking About You- Frank Ocean, Novacane - Frank Ocean and Marvin's Room- Drake and i am so bored i will just go and post stuf on youtube. Haha not that anyone will see buts i don't give a crap anymore.
You Won't Believe What I'm Doing
Watching Paris By Night with my fam. Ohmygod. For those who don't know, its this Vietname DVD that every single Vietnamese family watches and its so overrated and boring. Ahahaha omg finally it ended.
So its finally the holidays, the thing I'm waiting for because the last weeks of school were so dull and I just had to get away from all that.
BUT IM SO BORED ALREADY. ughhhh, there seriously isnt anything ti do because my rents barely let me go anywhere and so, its just the house and me. But, I'm trying my hardest to get out so wish me luck, ahaha.
Anyhoo, my last day of school was guuud. I woke up late, chatted with Brian while he was in class, and then went out at 9.30 with Chen to go to Bankstown. but fck was i paranoid I'm going to meet officers there. We were meant to meet up with Maddi and Steph and Sarah and Nish and Kristie and Angel there and go out at a tgai restaurant called @Thai. I went there on my birthday and it was so yuuum :)
So firstly i met up with Chen maddi and steph at subway and we went shopping and they got so much shit. then we went to pick up Sarah at subway and went to another asian clothes shop- OMG YOU GOTTA LOVE BANKSTOWN. Afterwards we went to Lincraft and I got Stipple brushes for Xin - I SPELT IT RIGHT- and some embroidery floss so I could continue my bracelets. OMG I FINISHED THIS ONE.
This took me a while because the colours got so confusing and then it went stranding and arghhhhh.
Hahaha and then we picked up Nigashini and decided we'd rather go eat Mccas and save the money to go shopping.
Anyway, i found a fedora at ses. OMG NOW IT LOOKS SO UGLY TO MEE ARGHHHH. i dont know if Brian would like it but i think i made it up by finding a tattoo with his name in chinese.
Soz the pick is kinda blurry. Ahaha but it was such a fun day and I went home by bus and it was really fun sitting on the bus with chen and sarah. Ahahaha omg i sound so cheesy.
So its finally the holidays, the thing I'm waiting for because the last weeks of school were so dull and I just had to get away from all that.
BUT IM SO BORED ALREADY. ughhhh, there seriously isnt anything ti do because my rents barely let me go anywhere and so, its just the house and me. But, I'm trying my hardest to get out so wish me luck, ahaha.
Anyhoo, my last day of school was guuud. I woke up late, chatted with Brian while he was in class, and then went out at 9.30 with Chen to go to Bankstown. but fck was i paranoid I'm going to meet officers there. We were meant to meet up with Maddi and Steph and Sarah and Nish and Kristie and Angel there and go out at a tgai restaurant called @Thai. I went there on my birthday and it was so yuuum :)
So firstly i met up with Chen maddi and steph at subway and we went shopping and they got so much shit. then we went to pick up Sarah at subway and went to another asian clothes shop- OMG YOU GOTTA LOVE BANKSTOWN. Afterwards we went to Lincraft and I got Stipple brushes for Xin - I SPELT IT RIGHT- and some embroidery floss so I could continue my bracelets. OMG I FINISHED THIS ONE.
This took me a while because the colours got so confusing and then it went stranding and arghhhhh.
Hahaha and then we picked up Nigashini and decided we'd rather go eat Mccas and save the money to go shopping.
Anyway, i found a fedora at ses. OMG NOW IT LOOKS SO UGLY TO MEE ARGHHHH. i dont know if Brian would like it but i think i made it up by finding a tattoo with his name in chinese.
Soz the pick is kinda blurry. Ahaha but it was such a fun day and I went home by bus and it was really fun sitting on the bus with chen and sarah. Ahahaha omg i sound so cheesy.
12/15/2011
Frank Ocean
I love him now. Not more than August Rigo and JR Aquino but he is now third. I love his type of music. I tried letting people like Nigashini listen to songs they sing..but they're more materialistic and trendy to listen to this.
But here's my tops Frank Oceans:
Frank Ocean- Miss You So
There is a slight pitch change but it's so good. I can imagine bboybyu dancing in the rain to this, hahaha.
Frank Ocean- There Will Be Tears
I love this song, it's the mood that I'm in, cept I don't really like the transition to the upbeat part.
Frank Ocean- Scared Of Beautiful - slight pitch change
I love this song, it's so edgy it's so good, haha.
Frank Ocean- Rocket Love
This is more of a RNB taste that I have on my ipod, it's a little different compared to the other songs before but I still love it the same :)
I will scout for more Frank Ocean. But the best one, I have to admit, is Novacane. Though I love JR Aquino's version more than Frank Ocean, heck, the man is a genius. Love the lyrics, love the meaning, love the edginess. So hyped.
i.am.done :)
But here's my tops Frank Oceans:
Frank Ocean- Miss You So
There is a slight pitch change but it's so good. I can imagine bboybyu dancing in the rain to this, hahaha.
Frank Ocean- There Will Be Tears
I love this song, it's the mood that I'm in, cept I don't really like the transition to the upbeat part.
Frank Ocean- Scared Of Beautiful - slight pitch change
I love this song, it's so edgy it's so good, haha.
Frank Ocean- Rocket Love
This is more of a RNB taste that I have on my ipod, it's a little different compared to the other songs before but I still love it the same :)
I will scout for more Frank Ocean. But the best one, I have to admit, is Novacane. Though I love JR Aquino's version more than Frank Ocean, heck, the man is a genius. Love the lyrics, love the meaning, love the edginess. So hyped.
i.am.done :)
12/14/2011
the aftermaths of war.
he finally unfriended me.
i honestly saw it coming. And I don't know what to say.
And yes, I'm angry at myself. How could i face him anymore? I'll see him on hkpr if we go on at the same time and what should I do? I know he won't add me anymore and I'm fine with that. But I'm angry at myself. I'm angry that I let him go. I'm angry that I lost such a good friend. I'm angry that I made him lose trust in me. I'm so fcking angry.
And upset. As much as I ask for forgiveness, I don't think I'll ever be able to face him honestly anymore. He'll always be doubting me, always be..FARK i can't believe I did that. I can't believe I did it the second time, I so hate myself right now. I farking feel like a bitch. I am. I am such a bitch.
And music comes to me again. Listening to Frank Ocean songs, zoning out and all this shit. I try to occupy myself so much so that I won't have any time to myself to thing about what I've done.
But this is my reply:
I'm sorry. I really am. I made you hurt and upset...for the second time. I proved myself untrustworthy and a shitty friend. But I really want us back together because i liked the times when these things never happened and we were just talking everyday about the whole world and what would become of us. You seem to be one of the people that knew me the most and you told me your world. But yet I couldn't be there for you. I placed you down, I lied to you. I farking hate myself, for real. If I was to turn back the clock I would go back and took my stand for you. But my idiot self thought that I could get away with this shitty crime, and I think karma came to get me. But I'm not blaming anyone. I'm not going to blame brian or sydney. it's truly my fault and I hold responsibility for it.
What I'm just hoping for is that you would acknowledge me sometime...when I grow more mature and more of someone you could trust again. No actually, don't. Because I know I'm a bitch. So don't. Stay away from me because it would beneficial for you. You would never get hurt. And please, don't trust anyone like me and don't be stupid to fall for someone like me again. Because I honestly hate it to see you get hurt. The bitch I am, I really do care for you and everything you do.
You're an interesting guy. Funny, nice, smart and I love our convos about you're incapability to sleep and me nagging you all the time...and hiking and just food and teasing each other around. You called me cute and I helped you get through your sad stage. I loved those times, i really do. I hope you meet someone better than me and forget me. I know it would take you a while to forgive me and, like i told you, i am waiting for that time. Please trust me on this: i will wait. We won't be the same again, I know it, but i hope we could be able to be like before again. Before all this happened, before you thought that i was the one. before you trusted me.
i honestly saw it coming. And I don't know what to say.
And yes, I'm angry at myself. How could i face him anymore? I'll see him on hkpr if we go on at the same time and what should I do? I know he won't add me anymore and I'm fine with that. But I'm angry at myself. I'm angry that I let him go. I'm angry that I lost such a good friend. I'm angry that I made him lose trust in me. I'm so fcking angry.
And upset. As much as I ask for forgiveness, I don't think I'll ever be able to face him honestly anymore. He'll always be doubting me, always be..FARK i can't believe I did that. I can't believe I did it the second time, I so hate myself right now. I farking feel like a bitch. I am. I am such a bitch.
And music comes to me again. Listening to Frank Ocean songs, zoning out and all this shit. I try to occupy myself so much so that I won't have any time to myself to thing about what I've done.
But this is my reply:
I'm sorry. I really am. I made you hurt and upset...for the second time. I proved myself untrustworthy and a shitty friend. But I really want us back together because i liked the times when these things never happened and we were just talking everyday about the whole world and what would become of us. You seem to be one of the people that knew me the most and you told me your world. But yet I couldn't be there for you. I placed you down, I lied to you. I farking hate myself, for real. If I was to turn back the clock I would go back and took my stand for you. But my idiot self thought that I could get away with this shitty crime, and I think karma came to get me. But I'm not blaming anyone. I'm not going to blame brian or sydney. it's truly my fault and I hold responsibility for it.
What I'm just hoping for is that you would acknowledge me sometime...when I grow more mature and more of someone you could trust again. No actually, don't. Because I know I'm a bitch. So don't. Stay away from me because it would beneficial for you. You would never get hurt. And please, don't trust anyone like me and don't be stupid to fall for someone like me again. Because I honestly hate it to see you get hurt. The bitch I am, I really do care for you and everything you do.
You're an interesting guy. Funny, nice, smart and I love our convos about you're incapability to sleep and me nagging you all the time...and hiking and just food and teasing each other around. You called me cute and I helped you get through your sad stage. I loved those times, i really do. I hope you meet someone better than me and forget me. I know it would take you a while to forgive me and, like i told you, i am waiting for that time. Please trust me on this: i will wait. We won't be the same again, I know it, but i hope we could be able to be like before again. Before all this happened, before you thought that i was the one. before you trusted me.
12/13/2011
Argh. Feeling so fucking in dipshit. I hate myself right now.
Whattheshit its not even school drama whattheshit what have a landed myseld into omfg.
I really can't talk to anyone because no one will fcking understand. I fcking hate being in drama. I hate sensitive people and people who only see things in their point of view. Call me a bitch but you realise the whole time i was thinking about you.
Whattheshit i fcking fcking hate this right now. Im in so much dipshit and drama, and i hate that the most.
You know how much i care for you asshole? You tell me about all this shit that happens around you, i always cheer you up while all this fuckery around me happens and i dont even whine.
And now you want to be upset? Can't you see stuff in anoter view? Dont you realise how much i care about you?
No. you dont care how much deepshit i was in and how much i worried about all this, saying that i hurt you and shit. Well you know what? Im sick of you being immature. You're grown up now, you're a friggin tall ass adult and if you act like a kid who holds grudges you can frigin kiss my ass because i have had enough caring days and night ocer this bullshit. I got a life to live dickhead.
Whattheshit its not even school drama whattheshit what have a landed myseld into omfg.
I really can't talk to anyone because no one will fcking understand. I fcking hate being in drama. I hate sensitive people and people who only see things in their point of view. Call me a bitch but you realise the whole time i was thinking about you.
Whattheshit i fcking fcking hate this right now. Im in so much dipshit and drama, and i hate that the most.
You know how much i care for you asshole? You tell me about all this shit that happens around you, i always cheer you up while all this fuckery around me happens and i dont even whine.
And now you want to be upset? Can't you see stuff in anoter view? Dont you realise how much i care about you?
No. you dont care how much deepshit i was in and how much i worried about all this, saying that i hurt you and shit. Well you know what? Im sick of you being immature. You're grown up now, you're a friggin tall ass adult and if you act like a kid who holds grudges you can frigin kiss my ass because i have had enough caring days and night ocer this bullshit. I got a life to live dickhead.
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