AFTER DECISIONS AND REVISIONS...

how do you like? 
spent ages trying to use photoshop and at the end of the day i think i have done a pretty swell job :) so get used to this for it will take a while before i change it the template again :)


finally, it is time to chill :)

I dont regret it. ive never regretted it at all.
To me it felt like a journey of discovering who i am through being with you and knowing what i wanted.
Yes i wanted you. Yes there was a time that i wanted you more than anything and to me you were perfection but i just couldnt see it happening.
Yes i lied to you. I lied that my feelings died because it never had. I still respected you and loved you but i was also cautious to not let myself go overboard and i decided that that was all we could ever be- more than best friends but less than a relationship.
I dont know about you but to me, even tho you weren't the first, you definitely felt like my first love.
We've both moved on now- ive found someone else and you told me you found someone too and , trust me, i am more than happy for you.
Cause i rather, this time, that you received that love that youve always given you truly deceive it. And im happy with someone who respects and loves me equally as well.
But idk about you but, to me, youll always be something special to me. You'll always be that one bittersweet memory, that 'couldhavebeen', the one that i've stopped loving but still do love. Yes i still do imagine sometimes what fun it would be if we actually were. I dont know if youll ever be able to read this but i just want you to know how i feel even after this journey has ended.
I wish you the best.

this is a dream come true :)

after all the longlonglonglonglonglong years of listening and super fanning and just wishing, my main man is finally announcing Australian tours. 

im gonna get vip. my body is ready for ticket hawking hahahahs. 

18 & 19 & 20 & 21

18.Quote you live by 

"What goes around comes around"

i am really influenced by karma. I believe that once you do something bad, it'll come back and bite your ass. most of my decisions to ignore other people and their wrongdoings is that i believe that they would be given shit afterwards and its true. 

19. story of you and your best friend.
tbh i have many best friends, i don't really stick to one person for the whole of my high school years cause like..changing class and people changing blah. 

D&m

Spent the whole afternoon & night paralyzed on the couch cause my legs felt like blocks of wood. Pretty much did nothing but ended up having a long talk with mum.

I guess i kinda got to a breaking point at how disappointed i am with my marks and how i know theyre disappointed about me cause i've got such an easy life compared to them but i couldn't even make it close to perfect.

Idk. I know my point in achieving good marks should be for myself but i always have them in the back of my mind and thats why i worry so much and pressure myself to be outstanding, then mentally punish myself when i don't meet the standards....

exciting new things happening in the next couple weeks.

starting fresh, although this might be a pretty bad time 

watch this space :) 

Splurgeee

- went out with chen today to go shopping
- she missed the bus so read emma to westfield parra like a loner
- walked around like a loner for 10mins until stayed in maccas
- went shopppping
- westfiled card expired, devs life had to use own money
-bought a kfc zinger box xin would be proud
-couldnt finish all xin must be ashamed of me :(
-bought stuff that i did not intent to buy and didnt even buy the things i needed

-went to btown for froyo at a seemingly empty noggi
Das mah day.

15 & 16 & 17

15. Jewellery that you're wearing
6 studs for 6 piercings yew :)
Im never bothered to changed them so these have been on for more than a month idgaf hahahs.

16. Turn ons
1. Knows how to cook/takes me out to eat
2. Acts cute/is cute/ says cute things
3. Cute nose
4. Is a dork most of the time :)
5. Is a mafia HAHAHAHS

17. Last awkward moment you were in
My life is the definition of akward.
Just today i went shopping with chenzo and while i was paying at the cashier at typo the guy was trying to make conversation with me while also subtly floirting with his coworker and i did not know when he was talking to who and then refused to buy a charity bottle but then ended up buying a charity bottle and gave him an extra $10 so that he would say "solidary maths" and thinking to myself "bitch that aint a word" long enough to keep an awkward silence going.

Solid effort ann you didnt even need to try :)

12 & 13 & 14

12. How you met the one you fell for the hardest

mhmmms :) we first met at the most spontaneous place; where i used to work. weird hey, hahahs. when i first started working he was already a frequent customer and then we figured we had mutual friends that also worked there and small talk between all of us got into small personal talks and a facebook add :) aaaaall branched from there... :)

13. Favourite memory of the past summer

LOLOLOL i really do have shit memory so all i can really picture is me lazing around at home hahas. but i guess the biggest, funnest memory of the summer holidays was being able to work at a place i loved and cared for with the closest funnest bunch i've ever worked with. We couldn't talk with each other properly, had language barriers, had little dramas, but we ended up being tight. i was quite shy to the coworkies when i first started even though i was happy and bright to the customers but, even though they couldn't speak english with me properly, they brought me in and talked to me. And when more newbie people came in we became tight. to singing to the annoying yogurberry theme song to physical fight matches even when there were customers, i had so much fun :)

To the original & refurbished Stra Yogurberry; Kihyun, Maria, Minjung, Tall Sam, Short Sam, Giweon, Jason, Mercy, Gina, Yerae and all the others i missed :3

14. Craziest thing you've ever done. 

uhmmm nah, not on here hahahahs soz. 

unnf.

August Alsina- You Da One 

halfies results- half good half bad. 
not ready for my rankings. 

fucking got allowed to go on a quick trip to america before year 12 and then dad just goes 'no don't be fucking stupid blahblahblah but gonna fight for it. 

this means though, that i wont be at school for the last 2 weeks as well as social but bleugh. 
:( so discouraged about school cause marks have came back disappointing so yeah. stuff that i didn't think i'd do well in i did pretty good, but fucking maths :( brought me down and i'm so fcking stuffed and maths tutoring is boring and stupid but i have to stay there cause of family ties and dad going omg no terry lee is good. NO HE ISNT. what's the point of giving us hard shit that we don't understand and make us do it? there's absolutely no point of giving us 5 minute lessons and then the rest of the 2 hours is doing craploads of exercises. its stupid :( and i miss truong so much cause at least when i'm there i actually learn and actually UNDERSTAND and this is like if you do thats good if you don't you're stuffed. 

im like only a little above class average but there seriously is no point in going. 

and then chem. is so disappointing because i understand chem and i love it but i'm just not good enough :( fucking silly mistakes. 

honestly i am very proud of my english. getting to here shows that i might just have potential but also shows that i must try hard. 

textiles. top mark but no-one really cares. 

modern history- pretty good marks, quite proud of my efforts. 

tired every single day. days go by like a fcking blur and i'm not even enjoying it. 

FCKING SHIT I HAVE A FCKING MATHS EXAM IN 5 HOURS THE HARDEST TOPIC THAT I HAVENT STUDIED FMLFMLFNFLMFLFLFMLFMF

Gulan

• Woke up late yesterday wanted to do tutoring work but mum dragged me to grocery shopping
• WASTED SO MUCH TIME 
• Went to the dentist after, good sets :)
• Cut my hair :( even though its short and looks senior rish like i wanted it to, i miss my long hair :( the sad life of having damaged hair :( 
• Went shopping for Chens presents. Got some dry conditioner she wanted, Rafaellos and a Megan Washington CD.
• Went to Chens house in my onesie omg so embarassing her parents kept laughing at me.
• NOICE FOOD. ERMEGAWD. 
• Not a lot of people but loved the atmosphere cause i got to chill and eat all dem sushi hahahahs. 
• Played singstar omg singstar. Total Eclipse Of The Heart :")
• Chilled with the rest until 10pm came home and slept right after with my makeup on
• Woke up today looking hideous
• Fuck you tutoring homework THAT I DONT UNDERSTAND. 

9 & 10 & 11

9. Your Christmas List

https://www.wantworthy.com/anntran-2 

it's allll pretty much unif stuff. gosh, still my favourite brand. 
:) 

10. What you're wearing

Oversized charity shirt, leggings, year 6 jacket...sorry i don't style at home hahahas. 

11. Favourite Song

Gah okay i honestly don't have a favourite song. I used to choose this via the fact that I could listen to it anyday and then replay again in like 1 years time and still not get fed up with it. But, knowing me, when I get hooked on a song I loop it on days end and then get fed up with it in a week and my music tastes keep changing so I really don't have a favourite song. 

But something I always sing in the shower would have to be Elle Varner's Only Wanna Give It To You. 

Her vocals are so good and the remixes and covers are always amazing expecially Lydia Paek's and Jeni Suk's. 

Check it out 

8.

8. List of concerts you have attended

I honestly have not attended many concerts until this year.
I remember how i used to want to go to so many of those kpop concerts but man, thinking about it, it would have been such a waste now that i dont't even listen to it anymore.

But, the first concert I went to was Jason Mraz's LOve Is A Four Letter Word Concert.
I initially thought that he would only play his newest album, which i believed is good but not good enough and was like ahhhhh...maybe this is not a good idea.
Wrong i was. It was so bloody amazing. mraz played all the good songs from Butterfly to Make it All Mine to Lucky and his crew were so happy and joyful and hes just so hip i wanted to marry him so bad hahahahas.

Next was Optus Rock Corps,
Bad concert experience to begin with. We were one of the first ones in and we got the best position middle front like 2 human rows after the front of the stage...or so we though. bitches started to want to push and shove and the whoooole crowd got pushed in all directions and stampled on and it was just hell and me and angel and nish and tan had enough we had to get pulled out. So we stayed at the middle right where it was less crowded. Guy Sebtian was good but seriously not ravey dancy enough. Then omg The potbellez! So much fucking love they were so amazing and then Tinie Tempah <3 The Script came on last they were goood but idk not ravey enough for me i just swayed and yeaah.

But guess whaaat. Going to Bruno Mars and Miguel next year, both my babes songs i know off by heart i have a feeling this will be the most amazing yet. Fuck Miguel can you love me and marry me and sing your iconic "kuaaarck" noise every fucking day skjfhksdjhfksjfh ermegawd.

Exams are over :)

So today is the last day of exams fuckyeaaaah.
Went early to school today met jasmine on the train and just spilled snd ranted to her of yesterday and i know one sbhs guy was listening but i was like IDGAF YOU CAN TELL THEM BITCHES IM TALKING ABOUT CAUSE IDGAF.

Was a nuisance on the bus. Went to textiles room and studied with michelle and danica theyre so hilarious. Me kristie sarah went to coles to get chips like fatties and then stayed at moore prk west and just slept and talked and chilled.

Went to study orals with annie and when we did it it was pretty fine but we took long than expected, 8 mins really did go away so quickly.
Then went with her to chinatown night markets got some nice green tea and custard pancakes sooooo lurveeeely.
Then went to hana hana got some okamiyaki idk what its called its pretty nice and mochi waffles soooo good love hana hana.
Then went to Chanoma Cafe where it specialised in all green tea stuff got a Matcha Float and Fruit Anmitsu. It was okay...a bit too bitter with the float and you really didn't get much with your Anmitsu but i guess it was a really good effort.

Had to catch the train home early and just slept on the train. Now will sleep, and watch eurovision, and worry about to wear for tomorrows party.

6 & 7

6. What does your last received text message say?

It was a mms from kristie with a macaron in it and "are u jelly yet."
Yeah, this is me and kristie's relationship: food hahahahas <3

7. What made you last laugh so hard that you cried?

Omg shit i think i do this everyday.
But this morn on the bus with kristie sarah and jasmine talking about stupid bitches we know and how we should line them up and slap every single one of them bahahahahahas.
Shit we were so loud and swearing and i bet every school kid on our bus was scared of us. Either that or going to moore park west with kristie and sarah and sleeping but it was so sunny that we had to cover our eyes with our hair and one of us geniuses decided to take selfies of our new "sunnies" hahahas too much love.

first time.

today was the first time i went through something big and did not tell you. 
today was the first time that shit happened that i did not call you first off. 

it's weird because after it ended i just sat there thinking that if such thing was to happen when we are still close i wouldve called you and you wouldve answered and i wouldve ranted and maybe cried to you and you'd be like 'im sorry i cant do anything' but i would be happy cause you would understand. 

remember when i would tell you of all these bitches that i'm pissed at and you'd be like lolol they're so stupid honestly ann your people are such bitches ngl. and we'd laugh about it? or when i was so pissed off at something and you'd be like ann im sorry you must be in such a shitty position, trying to please everything and we'd sit there in silence but in such comfort cause i knew you supported me and understood me so well?

gosh it feels so weird and different i'm not use to this i'm not use to you not being the first person i tell these shit to maybe because i tell you so much all the time, which leads to me feeling so selfish because you would listen for hours on end about my problems and then worry but i just feel so selfish blurting everything to you but like...at that time i felt like you're the only that actually understands me and that i 100% trust. 

i can't lie that i don't miss you cause i do and i miss everything we had but if it doesn't work out then let it go yeah i know. 

if you're reading this i want you to know that you did mean a lot to me and you still forever will and i know its hard now to get back what we had, that would probably never happen, but i hope you can at least keep those really nice memories with you because i will. 

Take care,
you stinky, cheesy, corn-eating, ft.island loving, retarded, weird, funny, loving, caring ball of poop :) 

// Mid-year 2011 :) 

Trague piercing part 2

So today i went to the really good piercer shop and asked about my hypertrophic.
Guy ended up saying that i was allergic to the bar and it was too short as well so he would change jewelry for me. As well as that he fixed my bubbles- by popping it.

Im not sure if thats what hes meant to do cause ive been reading online thats it good to pop it but i guess he knows best. Got H2Ocean which im happy about cause i wanted it and he gave me gauze and will come back in 2 weeks. Right now it looks normal and i love the new bar and it doesnt hurt and idk i hope it gets better :))


I think this guy at my tutoring is cute he sits behind me and hes really smart and studious and im a sucker for those. Weeeot.

5. Favourite Tv show

Ngah i have too many i cant like cut it down. My daily tv ritual goes for like 2 hours and i just watch the same shows okay so:

5.00pm - Happy Days
So this is when i eat if im bored and have nothing to do and wanna get dinner iver with. So its honestly the only interested tv show on and i wish Family Ties would swap slots with this cause i'd rather see Michael J Fox's baby face instead of Richie Cunningham and hes not even on the show anymore but the mexican Chachi guy is cute. But its like a family comedy show its not funny tho. So yeaaahh.

5.30pm- The Brady Bunch
I loveee it omg i just oove family shows theyre so cute and i remember the whole theme song okay.

And yeah its funny and cute like i used to hate it but it reminds me of The Partridge Family and theyre adorbs :")

6.00pm- sabrina the teenage witch
Hahahs brings back good tomes cause i never really ritually watched it until brian was like omg my bro is addicted to it and it was on and so i was like okay might as well and now i got hooked.
Yeah but i dont like it when sabrina grows old cause she breaks up with Harvey her high school best pal and dates some other guy totally forgot his name. But they only dated for a couple of eps and then theyre like omg were gonna get married wtf.

And so there was this really sad ep where one of sabrinas distant aunts came and turned her fiance into a fish cause she hates mortals and sabrinas like well fine im gonna give away all my witch powers to be a mortal with him if thats whats gonna make you happy! And sk the aunt gives harvey the magic saying "harvey you have the magic now, you can do anything...like make anyone come back to you" and you know harvey still loves sabrina cause theyve been best buds and theyre just so cute and so meant to be but Harvey instead turns that stupid fiance back to life and he leaves the place forever and i just cant believe that let the character go without seeinga hppy ending. SABRINA AND HARVEY <3 :(

6.30- friends
Yeah, i dont need to explain why.

Hahahs obviously im really into retro shows but if you were gonna ask me about current shows then im curretly addicted to my strange addiction, extreme couponing, extreme cheapskates :) love you TLC channel :)

my tragus piercing

to the anon

no i don't regret getting my tragus cause I love it but yes i do regret getting it at Hairhouse Warehouse. 

ughs i'm just so annoyed at it right now it's not listening to me. i've been sea soaking for 2 months and the back hypertrophic scar died down but it's not gone so I thought that maybe i have some progress. but then now there's a new one at the front of the piercing. and it's angry. and i'm just so annoyed cause i took care of it so well but the jewelry is too small cause the lady pierced it fucking diagonally and i get bumped into a lot like fcking girl yesterday at the library bumped into my ear with her butt and so it's been irritated and swollen like a fucker. 

and i'm so tired and annoyed at the piercing cause i'm so scared i'll have the scar forever cause it doesn't look like it died down soon. and all these internet people are like USE TEA TREE NO DONT USE TEA TREE USE CHAMOMILE DON'T USE IT USE BIO OIL. and i know  treatment depends on each person but i am such an impatient and anxious person and i gifget with it a lot so yeah :( im so sad gaaaah. 

going to abetter piercer tomorrow and will talk to him about it but if you guys are wanting to get a cartillage piercing, maybe not counting the normal helixes, research on it. ask if you desperately want it and go to the best place even though it's expensive. it might be more than hairhouse warehouse but trust me you're putting a bar into your body you'd want it to be professional. 

so right now i'm following my friend's advice cause she got a hypertrophic and after doing shit it died down: 

1. sea salt soak twice a day for 10mins
2. DRY your piercing after you shower cause of the grimy gross water 

i'm also starting bio oil cause i want to put crushed aspirin on it but people say its very strong so i'm just going to use bio oil first and see how it goes. 
and will buy H20cean tomorrow and will spray that 4 times a day. 

3 & 4

3. A secret you haven't told many people

I sleep with a nightlight. 

hahahs okay its just so weird if its all dark you CAN'T SEE ANYTHING. like what happens when you wake up in the middle of the night cause you're thirsty and you try to get out and bump into some shit on the floor cause it's fucking dark. 

i'm picky on my nightlights though. it can't be too bright all else i can't sleep and it can't be blue like fucking public bathroom lights cause that's scary as shit like those druggie ads. 

I've always slept with one all my life, every single i was young cause i was so paranoid that someone could be watching me at night and i wouldn't know CAUSE I CAN'T SEE SHIT. like i was those type of kids who'd fold the blanket underneath my legs but instead of doing it so my legs are warm i did it so no-one could reach under the bed and pull me down like in fcking Grudge 2 that i watched when i was a kid. yeah i was pretty paranoid.

come to my house and you'll see my little baby on the floor all day eryday :)

4. A fact about the last person you kissed. 

Short :( 

1 & 2

1. Tell me about your ex. 

hahahs uhm. the first one was really brief, like less than 3 months? and it wasn't much as well. but he was soo cute, well i guess at that age everyone was cute hahahas. 
really sweet, a little geeky but we didn't have much 'memories' cause we were like innocent and didn't know shit and were like okay lets go on a date but ended up having other friends there hahahs. 

it was a mutual breakup cause we go to different schools and it was hard to meet up and yeah, we don't stay in contact anymore though we see each other sometimes. 

i just need to name one right? 

2. Drunken story time..GO!

NEVER BEEN DRUNK WOOT. hahahs maybe cause i drink the light shit but i guess i'm not like those keen people who really want to go to drink parties. Yeah, worst impact though- and not really that bad- was when i had like 5 shots of soju or something before work and i was like or ditzy like i didn't know what i was doing half the time and spaced out sometimes like i stood in front of the bin and was like wtf am i doing here. hahahash Never went drinking before work ever again cause the manager was like wtf ann why are you so weird today and we couldn't tell her ofc. yeah she actually asked me that omg. 

will do tomorrow night yee.

I dont get it

You say you've moved on and you don't care so why do you keep posting shit?

Why do you always have to dramatize every fucking aspect.
Your life is not a fucking korean drama if shit happens to you you dont need to post melancholic essays and quotes and blahshitblah.

UGHS. Thats why i hate dealing with guys like you who act as if theyre about to break apart any second. WHERE ARE YOUR BALL. If youre going to keep asking me to help you out and comfort you please find someone else.

And so it begins

ITS MAY

May means: 

Fucking end to my first textiles assessment task. 
gargh. days of hand embroidery, stuffing for trapunto quilt, single bead erywhere, sewings lines and lines and lines, fabric dying miseries and all nighter and morning wakeups to sew flowers and do the portfolio. 

Half yearlies. 
fuck hahahahs. ehh, i will get through this no biggie. 
But this means less blogging.

Friend's wedding :) looking forward

come at me May, I'm going to take you down :)

and for you guys, I wont be on much this month, so I've created you a soundcloud mix for you to enjoy while im absent. I hope that, like me, you will love these songs and loop them as much as me :)