DAY#5. MY SISTER

Tina. 

I don't really know. I love you a lot but most of the time you piss me off so much. 
I can't say I don't care about you but you always hurt me. 
I help you by telling you not to do things to piss dad off and you start screaming at me or saying 'yeah well you don't do this and this and this.'


well i'm not the one who always gets into fights with dad on such stupid matters.

you're all like: i know best. shut up. this is what i want so im going to get. like your bajillion dresses that i told you not to buy because no one wears those kind of things to a formal? you never listened. and in the end look what happened? you're just going to give up 3 friggin dresses because they're not good for you. nothing's ever good for you right?

when i ask you to help me things like french or truong you're like yeahyeahyeah whatever i'll do it. and so im like, thanks man, and leave it on your desk. but you never touch it until i get panicky since that shit is due. and then you're like 'jeeezzz ann.' and you half-heartedly do it. it annoys me so much.  




and you're so honestly so careless about what other people feel. sometimes i think it's just YOU. you HAVE to be the centre of attention. everything in this house has to surround YOU. You make people do shit for you and when they ask you for something in return you give off the shitest, ignorant attitude that just gets you in trouble. and then you argue that you're right? does that even make sense. 


because of your selfishness you don't care how mum, dad and gran feels do you? you unintentionally but badly hurt them by making them feel useless towards you, saying they don't understand shit that you're going through at school, and that ignorant attitude and rude behaviour that you give out when you're annoyed is just not right. And when i tell you to be careful or else dad is going to explode, you explode at me. 


now i know that im not perfect and i have my things to fix as well, but you never listen to me. at least im trying to help. but im so tired that now im just trying not to get in trouble because everything you do and leave around..i get the blame. and you still don't listen. 

the people around us think that we're all happy dappy and go 'tina is so funny. you guys are so nice.' and when they do that i just laugh awkwardly. because it used to be like that. until we both changed. 


of course we have our times when we talk about guys, and bitches, and school and just everything. or when we laugh about our old memories when we were twins in everything we do. but the things you say and do on a normal basis just ruins it. i hope that, after all i've done and tried to say, you'd understand and change for the better. 


i do care tina. but you have to listen.