ahhhh

i don't know how to feel.

i don't like hurting people, and definitely don't like letting people down even if they're not close to me. i feel so mean thinking that i don't want to be in this friendship - i know they're trying hard to get close to me and i should be flattered and try to do the same, but at the same time someone who's so insecure and so weak is the type of person that i try to avoid. but yeah, right now i'm doing the bitchy thing of avoiding messages etc.