amusing

remember that post a while ago how some i told you bout some year 9 kid who's emotionally attached to a random dude she met on the internet and talking about her insecurities of showing him her photos and whatnot. 

hahahs the weirdo started again with some other chick and it's so weird yet so amusing. they're skyping random american guys and posting all this crap about "tyler loves you, no robert loves you, omg fuck with him." on newsfeed. please at least you can make yourself look less embarassing and message each other these things instead? i think everyone can see what creeps you guys are, for the love of god. 

omg please help me with this guys.

kay so i had my first training shift at yogurberry this monday and my trainer told me she'd call me monday night to tell me about my shift for tuesday, she just needs to confirm with the manager. 

and ever since i haven't had a call yet and i dont know if i should call them like a desperate person and ask about my next shift. pleasepleaseplease answer me should i?
my mum tells me i should be patient and just wait for their call but i want to call so bad cause i hate waiting and then thinking of some stupid explanation why they didn't call me and get so worked up. i mean, calling them means initiation right? 

omg i really want to work there it's like a bajillion times better than the mood at maccas. 

had a shopping trip at parra with chen and rachel today and bought some more things. just before i was heading off i got a call from sandra asking if i wanted to go in today so she'd train me on front - cause im a stupido and forgot and she promised to retrain me on thursday but didnt have time to- but i didn't want to, i felt so incredibly lazy and the thought of getting new clothes were too tempting. 

and i found out what a cheapo i am. I seriously didn't touch skirts that were $20 and tops that were $15 at shops like valleygirl and paperscissors. okay in my defense i don't see the point, i'd rather spend more money on something more expensive and nice at Myer. And omg the sale at Myer was so beautiful but i didn't get much time to look around but there were this pair of amazing high waisted jeans for $30 and i was like ermfdgkdnfgkndfg okay no time to try on sdlfjskdfkssdfd. found a new cd to jam to yay! i don't really buy cds cause i just download my music but i thought of going out of the comfort, and cheap, zone and buy Avalanche City's cd. Tbh i only knew of one of their songs so i was iffy and it was a choice of this and Janelle Monae. But i remembered how i listened to her cd online on spotify and didn't like some songs. So i just bought this and now im in love of it idk they remind me of Bon Iver.

Got more stuff aswell but since i have a feeling i will be shopping spreeing for more days, i'll do a haul by the time december ends. SO EXCITED :)

Laziness

The laziness of not adding peoples numbers on my phone results to having bunches of unknown numbers wishing me thoughtful messages, yet i dont even know who they are.

BUT MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. Hope that, though this weather is damn straight fcked up, you guys are doing something fun, not like me whos watching vietdance shows and doing endless maths. Hahahas.

MY JAM: CHRISTMAS EDITION

TIS THE SEASON! 

Firstly, Merry Christmas to everyone out there reading this!
To my readers and followers, thank you so much for bothering with me and may you have a wonderful festive season as well! 
Christmas is probably my favourite festive holiday all year. Though I don't decorate my house and my family doesn't celebrate Christmas any more than having a huge dinner, this festive season is always warm and vibrant. I just love being around my family, buying presents for my family and friends and watch everyone get excited about the whole season. 

But what I love sossos much about Christmas is Christmas music!
If you guys didn't know yet, i am a sucker for Christmas carols. The whole entire Christmas 'genre', if there's such thing, brings so much happiness and giddiness and i just lovelovelove listening to them. I just love how you can never go wrong with Christmas Songs. With the whole year being jampacked with new hiphop, rnb, rap, dance tracks..it's great to go back to slow, warm songs that can never change.

hahahas i've actually been waiting alllll year just to have this jam sess up with you guy.  I've been listening to Christmas songs for 2 weeks - hahahs being an early worm- and my workplace has been blasting a Christmas playlist so here's my favourite renditions, covers, as well as originals. 

I hope you guys would like these tracks as well for i am addicted to them, and do share it with your family, friends, and loved ones. Merry Super Duper Christmas!

 

The Christmas Song- Jeff Bernat & JBird

I really like this cover, as well as Jayesslee's cover. This cover really warm things up with the jazz organ instrumental, and Bernat's voice is just magical period. 

Last Christmas- The xx
I first heard of this while looking at BBC Radio 1 Live Lounge videos on youtube. but this is just amazing. This is exactly The xx's style of music and weirdly it fits so well. 

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas- Michael Buble
So I'm a big fan of michael buble, especially his Christmas tracks. When he sings, it feels as if you're listening to a Disney track. So old school and just so magical. His whole Christmas album is amazing, but i really love this track and Winter Wonderland. 

Winter Wonderland- Jason Mraz
This is just so friggin adorable! Jason just makes everything so fun and joyful and this cover of a classic is so fun!

Christmas Medley- US

This is an oldie. But a definite goodie! I've been hooked with this medley even when it wasn't Christmas, I'd just keep playing it on my youtube playlist. I really hope they'd do every single song as seperate videos because i just love their harmonising. I think they're the most perfect singing couple on youtube, this medley is just amazing and it makes me so jealous hahahas.

Thats the end of My Jam: Christmas Edition. I hope you guys love all these and, if you have a favourite Christmas song/cover, don't hesitate to link me I'd love to know! 

 

ITS THE END OF THE WORLD! +2dayshoppinghaul

hahasno. don't be crazy. 

anyways, yesterday i got an interview at YOGURBERRY STRATHFIELD! 
it went super well. I just blabbered on and talked about anything and everything i could think of and i think that helped! hahahs. so i've got training tomorrow and i don't know when I'll get my shifts but yeah, really hyped to work in the froyo industry since i'm crazy for froyo hahas.

anyways, took the opportunity to hang out with sarah, chen and kim at stra and after the interview we went to froyoland, bought some makeup and ate some korean food. 

came onto the train to get a text from the lady at yogurberry telling me about their training session which started 5 minutes before i got on the train so i missed out on that hahas. but no worries theres one tomorrow :)

today went with mum to St James to go to some gum specialist for some appointment, and in sarah's booties that she gave me. They were super pretty except super high for a beginner heeler like me so i felt so crap the whole day, especially walking to and fro from the station. 

instead of hanging in the city, i wanted to go back to bankstown to get mum some heels for christmas as well as something for dad. So we went to Bankstown to have lunch and did some Christmas shopping! 

so here's just some shopping - a part of it hahahas- that's been done in two days! 
 

So these things were bought really randomly, like i didn't think of going shopping to get stuff for myself. So, excuse the shitty cam quality and the poor lighting, Forever New had this sale going on which was 50% off ALREADY REDUCED items. which was so amazing because i just love Forever New hahahs. 

Found this pinkish long flannel blouse which i thought would look good with the bandeau i diyed recently so i got that (top right corner)
Lately I've also been into dark florals so when I saw the skirt ($15) I thought this was such a steal. The pattern is so pretty cause i want big florals but not so bright and cutsie so yeah :) 
And I also got a free bustier top at Forever New so yeeews, great buy :)

Got a sleeveless coral blouse at Paperscissors for $15 which has this cool cone stud collar as well as a pair of frayed High Waisters at JayJays for $15.

If you guys are looking for some cheap Christmas shopping, check out Paperscissors :) They're currently selling cotton stretch circle skirts - pretty vibrant and nice colours- for $3 no kidding. I would've totally got it if i didn't have one with a similar colour already.
 

FREE BUSTIER!

75 CENTS ALTOGETHER

 I also got these cheap lipsticks at a chemist in Strathfield, together with a small eyeshadow palette and Pantene conditioner for 75 cents altogether! The colours look better in real life yet the coverage may come out as a little bit light for some people, but i think it's perfectly fine cause i'm not someone to full on colour those lips hahas.

Anyways, pumped for tomorrow as well as Sunday cause I've got dinner and lunch dates on back to back so, GET READY TO SEE SOME FLAB :L

got a job interview :)

fingers crossed for hope and luck,  will update by tonight :)

ughhh stupid stupid people

beach day today :)
super excited because i haven't been to the beach in ages- for over a year actually- and last time i went i didn't swim so this time i was like, okay i need to get in the deep end. 

so went to central and met up with sarah, angela, maddie, kristie, angel, nish, tan. so we all went there and the first 1 hour we just hung around in the water and splashed and shit hahahas. 

sarah and kristie didn't have swimmers so they just stood there awkwardly at the shore and then went to get some food and i felt sorry for them but i couldnt do anything. 

Ate maccas for lunch and these brazilian guys sitting next to us were so suss they kept looking over and at group. but i can't blame them cause we were so embarassing haahs. 

spent the next hour sitting, eatting, talking, taking luvos. gave maddie her present that we stuck into the sand and she's so funny it took her ages just to see it yet it was so obvious. 

then everyone went to central except me and angela cause we wanted to wait for lamya. that was a pretty dog thing to do from the others though, i was pretty pissed off. lamya came and we sat and talked for a bit and then angela and me went back into the water. and friggin brazilian boys were there. and angela was teaching me how to become a beach babe until these year 9 girls came with their sbhs friends and were like jumping in the water with their school uniform and getting all giddy and "OMG AHHHS WATERS IM SO SCARED." 

seriously. seriously? don't go to a friggin beach if you're going to be like that omg can't deal with these people. came back up and went back to central and met angela's grandma ahahahas. 

and then friggin cityrail, there were major delays at sydneyham and i had to get off the train and these huge masses of people were getting off. and we were on platform four and the train guards told us to go to platform one and like everyone got stuck at the platform bridge like im serious, everyone was stuck together. And these stupid stupid tempe kids were like "NO IT'S PLATFORM 5. NO IT'S PLATFORM 6." and im like "He said platform four" but they're like "no look at the board it's platform 4. can't you read" so i got pushed down to platform four, met kim ahahhas and then the guy on the speakers was like - for the bajillionth time- "bankstown line go to platform 1." 

friggin. ughs want to whack some sense into these stupid kids I CAN'T EVEN STUPID IF YOU LISTENED TO ME YOU WOULDVE GOTTEN SOMEWHERE AND WOULDN'T BE STUCK AT THE SYDNEYHAM BRIDGE FOR 5 MINUTES CAN USE YOUR EARS.

okay im sorry im just so pissed off today my steam can't be calmed.

my sis got her hsc raw marks today and she did pretty well except in physics and dad was like "your marks are good but im really disappointed in your physics marks." and i just thought to myself that "omg if her marks are like this and he's disappointed, i'd probably be chucked at of my house by my future marks." seriously her physics marks weren't crap either. 

friday im hanging out with my mum in the city yayay and sunday will be hanging out with kim at her partaaay :) i really do want to go to the formal dinner but i dont think dad will let if i go both morning and night. plus i dont want to trek to the city in heels and a dress to go eat at kfc so yeah, it's all good either way. but im gonna try asking for both, it's just i know which one i'd rather go to hahahs. 

less work in the holidays mean more time to go out, which i really want to because it would be the last holidays i'll get to spend being absolutely free. after the holidays im thinking of looking for another job with nina so it'll be absolutely great :)

and lastly, HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BRIAN :) hahahs if you're reading this, yeah you're turning quite old now, already so ancient. But that's okay, cause i'll get to tease you more hahahas. but keep being that crazy, funny, witty person you are with your confetti and whatnot hahas. and don't worry so much about random shit everything will turn out fine. and if things be a bitch to you, you can always PA them and whack them with your baseball bat :) have a great day :)

Its trivial

To sit here everytime like an eager little kid, waiting for the words "typing.." to disappear. Your crazy, witty comments would appear and i feel awaken even though my eyes are heavy.

Honesty Corner: 27: A problem that you have had.

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27: A problem that you have had.

A seriously big problem that i once had and still struggle today would probably be feeling good about myself. 

I've had a hard time trying to be comfortable being who i am both appearance wise and character wise and it used to affect me so much that I would victimise myself just cause of this insecure feeling. 

I wouldn't go out to meets, wouldn't approach and talk to people that I used to know, and wouldn't want to join new things and meet new people cause i felt so insecure about myself. Now i really regret this cause, though i'm 'spreading' out now and it's not too late, there were so many people I wanted to keep in contact with but, because of this problem, it makes it kind of difficult. 

I dont know, something I feel so strongly regretful about is, because of this issue, i victimised myself so much. People would do this that pisses me off or hurt me unintentionally and, without asking for the reason, i'd conclude "Because they don't like me". The feeling that I'm not deserving of where i am and making myself feel inferior to people around me. I think that has pushed me down a lot.

Around other people that i don't feel comfortable in, I'd change who i am and try to fit in because i think my personality doesn't belong and, because of that, i would feel so self-conscious about every word I say and try to impress those people.

 I guess that, recently, I've started to feel better about myself and embrace who i am but tbh I've still got that problem. I guess this happens to everyone has that feeling where they're just not satisfied with themselves. 

Appearance wise, i have felt confident in myself. These past months of being healthy and staying on track with working out and eating right has made me love myself. In a way i don't love my body parts like omg my legs and beaut or omg my arms are balhbalh idk but  just love the feeling of post-training and the feeling that my body feels good because my mind feels good and it just makes me appreciate myself more.

I guess we'll never be satisfied with ourselves though, even though we may say we are. But i've learnt that to make me feel better would just be to hang out with the people that I'm comfortable with as well as to branch out and just try to get along with other people and make new friends. if they don't suit then don't take it personally and just try somewhere else. 

i hope that, through this honesty corner, not only can i make myself feel better but as well as a few of you guys who find this problem really hard to maintain as well. This is a pretty personal issue but if you guys need that help i think i could be there for you. I'm not some professional crap but i could be a helpful shoulder :)

head nodding, finger tapping

dumbfoundead- growing young

Solivagant

You get choices in life that you often take while thinking what would happen if you said otherwise.
You make decisions so capable of turning back and regretting it one day, week or year later.

Making these choices are inevitable and hard to avoid and you often feel the aftermaths of it all so acutely.

I think im feeling that now, and to be honest it feels very shit.

JC Coltranes are $190

Sorry Jeffrey Campbell i'm not a money tree i'll just have to buy a replica :(

first impressions

Do you ever have that one guy that you faintly know but you want to be friends with or at least mutually know who you are? 

So there's this one guy at my tutoring that I've known since last year when I started and my friends all think he looks like a weirdo with all that hair and ugly ugly shorts but i really thought he was a nice guy. 

Like he's the type where he'd crack lame jokes in class, make weird faces to his friends, tease the teacher, and although he isn't that intelligent he sounds like someone who is pretty fun to talk to. Weirdly this led me into appreciating his bird nest of a hair- which is actually pretty good seeming that it's natural and not permed to be that poofy- as well as his sense of style (yet my friends still diss the time he came to class in purple 3 quarters with shell patterns on them) 

though people are like "jeez ann you should just add him on fb blahblah message him balhblah" i felt like that was pretty weird. for one we don't know each other except for this little conversation i had with him after i spilt shit on the floor once and two i feel like if you've met someone in real life that you're not close to/don't really know know, adding them on facebook is really out of bonds.

so yeah, not trying to sound weird, but all this time i've been making up this image in my head and thinking that his one of those funny class clown people who could be pretty subdued and nice at the same time and that i just really want to be friends with him. 

anyway, this all went lopsided when i was on a mutual friend's twitter and his twitter got mentioned. Turns out he is a douchebag guy.

Okay i don't want to be a judgemental bitch but you know the ones that swear excessively. like serious excessively like (#SOMC - please dont try to find what this means, fck this fck that in every sentence), calls his girl friends as 'whore' 'bitches' and 'cunts' no jokingly and is so consciously stupid he doesnt think when he says shit. 

SUCH A TURNOFF. immediate turnoff. I really don't know how guys think this is the attitude to attract other girls or even be 'cool' cause this is just very douchey. 
okay you know what maybe if you had a cleaner mouth and a better attitude, you'd get more friends, but don't look like so at the moment.

idk i just get so pissed off at these things. it's like you know that this person could be better and actually is but cause they want to be so cool and topshit they have to act like a douchebag who finds its fun to act like a jerk. or maybe he's just like that normal. ermegawd first impressions are so offtrack. can i just please have some personality reading machine so i'll be able to know who to approach and who to think of so highly about jeez. 

NOVEMBER FAVOURITEEES.

nts: this would be a scheduled post due to the heap of posts made during my boredom :)

So HEY IT'S DECEMBER. hahahahas. November came with loads of drama, exposing of feelings, realisation of who's your real friends, as well as the spastic whether that sends you to the freezer every 20mins of your shift. But overall, November was fun,so here are my favourites yay :)

1. Travis Garland- Diamonds/Adorn Cover
I am not really a fan of Diamonds. I don't know but to me, i think this is just Rihanna's attempt of trying to get into the grungish genre like Lana Del Ray. But this is just my opinion. But Travis! hahahs okay he is something so different. He is such an amazing singer and his range is pretty big and yeah. 
 Also, I'd like to show you guys to something more acoutic and free-thinking. I was on a vlogger's tumblr and happened to find this song in their recommended playlist and, the whole november, it has looped itself on my youtube :)
There's no vocals in it, it's just acoustic with loads of piano and when I listen to this I imagine myself on a train ahahs. okay i'm so weird anyhoos.

 2. Yukar- Michita

3. CANDLES
Okay so I'm really not a fan of candles because some can just over-smell hahaas. yeah i dont know it can just get very "too-much" and yeah. But recently I got those small samples in the mail from The Candle Shack, which is a shop that sells Soy Candles - pretty interesting. I got three (but the other one mum hid somewhere that's turned it invisible) including Strawberries & Cream, Grape Expectations and Pineapple Mango. The Grape one is by far the greatest for the scent smells so nice but doesn't overdo it so you just get this sweet light smell. 
Also, if you didn't know, I recently attended my cousins wedding and she had candles for each guest. I got the green candle (Fig and Frangipani) and it's sososoos nice and I think she got it at Kmart hahas. So i just basically hang them around my house because my dad doesn't trust me lighting them up and they just give off this really nice faint smell :)

 3. Silver Elastic Watch
So grandma recently came home from her american adventures and she gave me this watch she thought was cute. I like how the face is not bulky so it looks pretty neat and oomhp silver watches in general :P though i still can't quit the habit that I would just rummage through my pocket for my phone to check the time even when i have it on :L should learn to drop that.

 4. Golden Gaytimes!
So November came with heaps of wild weather including the scorching sun and it seriously sucks to be doing fries in 40 degrees heat. So when mum splurged on 3 boxes of these i took my chances of getting flabby and think i munched down a box's worth in a week.

 5. Japanese Cherry Blossom triple moisture body cream
So this cream was given to me by my grandma from America. Due to vlog reviews and hauls that I've been watching on facebook I have heart about this for quite some time but never really wanted it because I don't use body creams much often hahahs probably cause I'm just too lazy for them. BUT THIS SMELLS AMAZING. And its so smooth on your skin and you feel like a babys butt after it hahahahas.

6. PEZ CANDY. 
Okay calm down Ann ahhahas. Okay I'm not going to lie, this wanting of Pez Candy came from my friend as well as this french movie I was watching in class. But I saw the dispenser and was like ermegawd i must have that- hahahas typical Violet from Charlie and the Cho Fact. saying :P- So yeah I've been crazily hunting for one and I finally found one at Big W and rejoiced at the Limitied Edition glitter one hahahas. Okay don't diss but the head it glittery! And it was like $2 which is a steal compared to $2.50 at someplace else. 

Though I got disappointed after trying them out. Cause it was my first time - yeah, i had a pretty sad childhood hahahs- i thought the pez candy would be like chewy, like maoams or something along those lines. But it's hard. and artificial. Like you know those types of candy where you're just like:"Too much sugar. too much flavour. too fake"..? Yeah i got that feeling. But still, its a pretty good mood brightener hahahs. 

So yeah thats all for today for my november favourites!
I'm reaaaaally excited for December because it's Christmas season and that just means loads of fun and gift exchanging and friend dinners :)

I've also recently bought some stuff online as well as my friends buying them for me so im just sosososos excited for them to come to take photos and post them on here yewww :) 
Sarah said the Taobao things she got for me would be coming by the end of this week so fingers crossed they would arrive :))
This week i'm also thinking of going shopping for my friend's birthday present as well as exchanging jojo's skirt to a smaller size because it's just beautiful but sadly too loose. I also want to get a hold of some fabric, preferably jacard, to make some skirts with that as well :) Already finished one but it's like butt short which doesn't help so hahahahs gotta get more fabric gahs. 

Also went on an asos bargain hunt yesterday and got these pair of pants for so cheap gosh lksjdlkjdlasjdlaksd. okay so they're butt shorts but i'm thinking of just buying a maxi cardi so i could hide my butt because i don't want people to be staring at shit.

Friday is also kk day which is both exciting plus nerveracking because IM SO AFRAID JASMINE WONT LIKE MY PRESENT :(


okay so i got her something for really expensive as well as complimentary things for it - and i'll post of pictures of those things on friday night after we exchange gifts- but I have a feeling she out of that phase where she wants what i got her. I know she's not the type to be like :"uhhh this is crap gtfo." cause i know she'd be happy with what she gets but i don't want to be an uncaring bitch and get her something crappy. 
As my friend what i should do and they're giving me mixed responses idek.


So i ended up going shopping today and getting her some (2) makeup essentials cause she's really into makeup now. The complimentary thing wont arrive until god knows when because it's so crappy so at least i'll be able to give her something on the day so she can be happy about. 

okay sorry for the rambling the flu meds are getting to me. BUT OMG LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL. FREE EARRINGS HEOHEOHEOHEO. too beaut :)

 

have a great december :)

 

 

A week of bore

Mhmms title says all.

Anyways on Monday had school where we pretty much did nothing. Watched a doco in Science, had Zumba, did poetry again in English, boring Maths period, bitchy textiles period, done.

Tuesday helped out at the Premiers Gala Concert! It actually was amazing cause i felt so good helping old people and seeing them have such a good time. I was placed in a group with nish ang kristie and tan and our group leader was this sassy guy Peter who was so hilarious and goddamn sassy :L

Showed a couple of ladies to the wrong section though and got told offas well as bumping into another lady who gave me a dirty. But other than that it was fun :)

Wednesday was Christmas concert so i missed out classes yew hahahas. Was in charge of the green room with the radio and megaphone was xinnaby but the start of the day we just ran around and did loads of work.

Afterschool went with jasmine to go to gloss and she bought so much makeup for maddies party hahas. Then went to this new shop next to topshop called CosmoCosmetics, met up with angel and sarah and looked for some other shit. Then went to pepperlunch.

Okay so pepperlunch really isnt that nice idk what the hype. i had this beef rice thing which is such a waste cause its only rice and corn and beef like people just liles it cause it sizzles. Met up with kristie and then we webt to meet fresh :)

Okay so the weird meet fresh story starts here :L we wanted to get the taro ball no.4 but without the taro pieces and when kristie ordered the ladies like "you want taro or herbal jelly" and angel was like HERBAL JELLY HERBAL JELLY. In the end we got herbal jelly no. 4 which had no yellow taro balls in them hahahas which we really wanted.
So sarah was lile fck this lets just buy seperate taro balls and the guy sold it lile 8 for 30c so we bought 24 hahahas and the guy there was just like wtf crazy kids cause we just sat there eatting all these taro balls so happily.

And then kristie was just lile omg lets get more but we had enough money to get taro balls no. 4 so we ordered another one. Hahahas.

Started getting panicky that we couldnt get back in time so we ran from town hall to museum station buses with full stomaches like weirdos hahahas.

Came back the quickest and started preparing for the show which had so shit organisation.
Or so there wa ppose to be a green room which was the campbell hall but surbey locked it and so people flocked to the pd rooms which had no programs cause they were all stuck up in the campbell hall.

And then Henshaw was like every performer should be down the hall and wathing the performances and were like the fck how would they know when to go and prepare for their performances the fk we cant megaphone them in the hall. One of the stage managers, this year 9 shit was so bad and what she was doing like she was somewhere nowhere half the time and i got so pissed off, even jasmine was as well and i was lile omg jasmine just get the walkie off her she not doing anything.

Finished and got home sick, took the day off.

Came to school on friday was sooo boring and now getting ready to goto work :) quick update due to rushed time so sorry :)

"cool" people

"cool" people: people who think theyre so cool and superior that act unsociable and stupid.

Person: hey you from my tutoring?
?
:/
Me: yup hahas hey
Person: ohh
alrighty then
End of convo

The fck you serious okay first off uou started the convo please sont tell me that you dont know how to continue something so simple as "hey"

ughs immediate turnoff IMMEDIATE.

Honesty Corner: 01: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

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01: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is. 

hahahas mhmm i knew someone would ask me this, i think i know who this is because they've been questioning me this for ages. But right now I'm single.

hahas for a while it's been pretty complicated cause me and this guy used to have mutual feelings for each other yet i told him i didn't want to be in a relationship and we kept going back and forth. But yeah, single. 

I really don't mind being single though. To be honest there are so many times when I get jealous of people around me who are in the cutest relationships and I wished that I was in one alike that as well but I think I just have too many things happening around me most of the time to care about these things. Being around a group of friends who are single really does make it better cause - though they can be annoying cause there are so picky and judge guys from the smallest things that are so superficial- we'd make jokes and statements about how these things doesnt faze us and yeah hahahs. 

To be perfectly honest I don't see why some people have this desperation to get on the couple bandwagon. Being single allows me to spread out so much more and talk to people more freely and even able to have stupid meaningless crushes towards some people without people telling me I shouldn't. Maybe people are just desperate for that physicality of being in a relationship; like having someone to hold hands with or to maybe to have someone to 'own'. Of course I do want to have some sooner or later but I'm just not desperate. what will come will come? hahahhas.

Honest Corner:08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

i truly can't pinpoint a time that I felt most satisfied with my life. I've had many personal achievements that might not even account to much in the long run but, to me, it made me feel really great. 

some great moments I've kept in mind:


1. Getting interviewed for my first job
I tried out for a cashier job at a local supermarket around end of last term. To me it was a huge challenge because it was my first time I'll be walking to the place, asking to meet the manager, and asking him if he had any jobs available. The easy step of applying online and going to a planned interview wasn't there for me. And I was really afraid of first time rejection and just seriously nervous that I had to bring a friend along to calm me hahahs. So when I finished my unplanned interview with the manager and got myself a first shift, it felt really good.

2.  Helping a friend get over a heartbreak
hahahs from time to time I still congratulate myself for this hahas. At that moment he was going through a rough time cause his ex was being a passive bitch (unintentionally but at the same time repetitively) yet he still liked her and afterwards he was just very emotional and close to turning into a cat lady ("i feel so sad ermegawd girls are so mean i don't think i can go through this shit anymore."). Talking to him everyday to make sure he's a-okay and doing the randomest things like acting weird and crazy (not that i'm not already hahahas) apparently helped him to get over the relationship and it felt real nice when he thanked me and was like "yeah i feel really good now, i think i've moved on". Iunno, when I see that I've helped someone i really care about, it's a pretty satisfying moment. 

3. Being around mah family!
Okay, cliche cliche cliche omg why is ann such a cheesy kid but I'm always satisfied with just being around my family. So much shit things happen, we fight a lot and get into arguements but I think I'm the luckiest person alive to have such people that love and care for me so much.
 My grandma's the type of person that if i need anything, and i swear ANYTHING from random fruit cravings, random fabric needs, and midnight snacks, she'd get it for me without any complaint. She is such a swell person that when I overeact and treat her shit she doesn't keep it in and still loves me.
 My dad is a caring person- though sometimes he can be so traditional and his logic is just crazy. He may seem so agro all the time but things like going out at night and weird things that I want he would scream at me at first but then let me go. And, although he's rough, he really does care for my wellbeing and education and I never want to let him down. 
My mum is the sweetest nicest kindest woman you would ever meet. She is so young at heart and dedicated to the family she'd rather spend time at home then go out with her friends once a week. She is so incredibly cute when she tries and converses with my friends in english and always see how i'm going and we'd have these d&ms together about everything. 
Tina. Tina is the most annoying, irritating, hard-headed, demanding person that I've ever known but I just love her sososos much. I can rant to her comfortably about things i can't talk to myparents about like my shit grades, my workplace, guys, annoying personal things and she cares for me a lot. 

Just being together and spending time as a whole family on weekends means so much to me. I just love sitting around the table -TVless- and just eat while basking in such warm atmosphere. I feel like the most spoilt kid alive. 

What did i just do why am i so stupid.

I must be the most stupid girl alive.